Saturday, November 25, 2006


Condolences to the family of my uncle who just passed away.

I don't really know what to say here...

Also, let me/us know if there's anything I/we can help you with, 'kay?

Friday, November 24, 2006

Second Factor Authentication

Never expected to be able to hold such a device myself. The secure device came today in the mail. A perfect 'perk' for the crazy computer engineer =)

Sunday, November 19, 2006


Still recovering from the slight disillusionment, I hope 'life' returns soon, have been 'dying' bit by bit for a while liao.

Saturday, November 18, 2006


If I want to continue my ministry towards all the people around me, I'll need to change a lot further. Not that it isn't impossible (the fact that I changed in so many things cannot be anything else other than God working), but it's scary, uncomfortable and really tiring...

Over the past few months my focus hadn't been on Christ as it should be. Gradually, gradually, I lived for him lesser and lesser, just doing the same external things, but the heart had already run far far away. What an oxymoron: not belonging to this world anymore but losing focus of the sole reason for everything, which is the Judge's impending return.

Doing things with the right heart and the right understanding may not necessarily result in a sooth life, but I know that that's the way the redeemed should live on: in thankful obedience for what God has done for us in Christ.

May I (and the many brothers and sisters of this family) always trust in Christ till the end, and live for Christ's and others' sakes.

Monday, November 06, 2006


Torn between this world and the next. Just, torn and suffering the consequences of myself.

Thursday, November 02, 2006


Many, many things I'm worried about, but I'll keep trying to think through and do what I should be, and ask God to doing what only He can.


Saw my blog's sitemeter for the first time in months, and amazingly there's still a continuous flow of visitors to this site every day, even though I don't update regularly. There's a few possibilities on who are the visitors who come to read:

1. The type that checks every single blog that he/she knows, even though there may/may not be anything worth reading apparently.

2. The type that wants to know what's up with my life (from whatever little I write) somehow.

3. The type that hates me so much that he/she wants to know what I'm doing, so that he/she can curse me/poke voodoo dolls of me/do something with that information. =P

4. The type that uses my blog for other reasons like using the blog links, or just to get their daily laugh out of seeing my horrible blog design.

5. Actually my visitor count is not from people, but search engines only. My blog truly is desolate =D

I haven't seen the details of the visitors yet (don't have so much time), but I'm pretty sure there'd be a considerable percentage of search engines, because almost nobody comments! Hahahah =D

(Exam stress makes people write weird things at times)

Tuesday, October 24, 2006


I find it amazing sometimes how selfish a person can get, but I never fail to amaze myself at times.

Seeing things from my own perspective only, as opposed to considering others first, can only be self-centeredness manifested.

With my explicit promise to Fen to work towards marriage with her, I should change in the way I handle time for one.

It won't be easy...But it's been made possible by the kind of relationship we have with God through faith in Christ, and we must try to obey him in the way we live our lives.

Monday, October 23, 2006

No more Blackie

I don't have a dog anymore...Had to bring him to spca for euthanasia because he's really old and unwell for a while even with the medicine and all.

Was a bit depressing to see a pet for 10 yrs gone just like that, even though it's only a pet, not a human. My mum's sadder though, having spent far more time and effort in taking care of it.

On thinking about it it's quite sad that some of us do have better a relationship with the objects/animals than with the people around us. Especially those whom we're supposed to be closest to like family, spouse etc. After all it's mankind which was created in the image of God and not the animals; animals aren't supposed to replace man in certain things.

Sunday, October 22, 2006


Today I made a really big promise. A promise to Wai and Maria's kid (Elliot), acting also as a reminder to our promise to all the other children/people around.

What's the promise about? To love him by teaching him God's truths from the bible and by modelling Christian behaviour to him always, so that he not only may come to accept Christ as his personal Lord and Saviour, but also that he may continue to live his life for Christ.

If that wasn't a seemingly impossible task already, the time-span of the promise takes the cake: for the rest of my/his (Elliot's) lives!

Had to pause for a while before I said 'yes' together with the rest of the congregation, really seemed like a immense promise to swear before God and one another =P

Not as if without the promise made, I'm free to not love others around me in that way, since Jesus had already commanded his disciples (and thus us also) to love one another in the same way as Jesus did, in a sacrificial manner.

We like to make solemn promises before one another, eh? =P I know I will fail at times on this promise (as I have with many similar promises), but with God's help, I'll keep trying at it =)

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

For The Love Of God - Volume Two (Oct 18)

About Daniel 3, certainly a good reminder on responding to this great God who made everything, and saved us!

(You can suscribe for it to be sent to your email here.)

THE IMAGE NEBUCHADNEZZAR SET UP (DAN. 3) was doubtless designed to unify the empire. That is why he ordained that all “peoples, nations and men of every language . . . must fall down and worship the image of gold” (3:4 - 5). Living as he did in a pluralistic culture where people could with impunity add gods to their personal pantheon, Nebuchadnezzar saw no reason but rebellion or intransigent insubordination for anyone to refuse to worship the image. The threat of the furnace, from his perspective, guaranteed conformity, and the potential political gain was incalculable. Furnaces in Babylon were primarily for the firing of bricks (cf. Gen. 11:3), widely used because suitable building stone was so scarce. Some large brick kilns have been dug up outside the ruins of ancient Babylon. Certainly Nebuchadnezzar would have had no scruples about burning people to death (Jer. 29:22).

The striking exchange in this chapter is between Nebuchadnezzar and the three young men, Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego, after their first refusal to bow before the image (3:13 - 18). The emperor’s final taunt almost dares any god to come forward: “Then what god will be able to rescue you from my hand?” (3:15). Of course, as a pagan, he lived in a world of powerful but definitely finite gods, and in some instances he certainly felt that he was their equal or even their superior. From the perspective of biblical theism, this is monstrous arrogance.

But it is the answer of the three men that deserves memorizing and pondering: “O Nebuchadnezzar, we do not need to defend ourselves before you in the matter. If we are thrown into the blazing furnace, the God we serve is able to save us from it, and he will rescue us from your hand, O king. But even if he does not, we want you to know, O king, that we will not serve your gods or worship the image of gold you have set up” (3:16 - 18). Observe: (a) Their basic courtesy and respect are undiminished, however bold their words. (b) They are completely unwilling to apologize for their stance. The wise believer never apologizes for God or for any of his attributes. (c) They do not doubt God’s ability to save them, and they say so: God is not hostage to other gods, or to human beings, emperors or otherwise. (d) But whether or not God will save them they cannot know — and the point is immaterial to their resolve. Faithfulness is not dependent upon an escape hatch. They choose faithfulness because it is the right thing to do, even if it costs them their lives.

The courage we need in this anti - Christian age is courteous and steadfast. It never apologizes for God. It joyfully believes that God can do anything, but it is prepared to suffer rather than compromise hearty obedience.

Tuesday, October 17, 2006


I hate feeling more and more lethargic these few months. End up not doing so many of the things I should be doing, especially those that are urgent...

Saturday, October 14, 2006

Was sick...but now I...

Had been quite a horrible 3-4 days since I last posted. All just from a badly infected throat (leading to a fever to a headache; and the antibiotics given leading to diahorrea). Ended up sleeping off most of the past two days at home, after two visits to the school doctor (do not go there, unless you're about to lose an arm from a rabid dog bite or something like that) and one more to a trusted doctor.

But thank God, am feeling a lot better already, though my sore throat's yet to fully recover.

Many thanks to my mum and Fen ="P though I don't think they'll see this, at least not my mum lah =D

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

The test

Learnt this the hard way: playing soccer in 100 over psi conditions with a sore throat isn't wise. Being level-headed to take care of oneself and saying "no" even when pressured is.

Playing with my health in such a condition was stupid, ended up being horribly unwell, and others have to worry and put in effort to take care of me.

Another thing learnt from a negative example by myself =|

Monday, October 09, 2006


The allure of enjoyment,
without having to worry about anything else.

It promises a lot,
but in the end only destroys.

Living life apart's from God's way
can only mean death.

I hope I can be rid of this soon.

What seemed to be nice
only turned out to be a curse already.

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

Glad and Sad

Seeing brothers and sisters for the first time in a long while makes me happy, but seeing them still fighting on (and alive) tops the cake.

On the other hand, I do hope to be thinking always, and to see progress in many things. It is just saddening to see people implicated by the mess I make...

Looking Forward

Before I forget the feedback I got from PA regarding last saturday...

1) Communicate effectively! This will help not only in leading bible studies, but also in everyday conversations. Keep the sentences short and meaningful, yet not childish. No unnecessary repetitions.

2) Be a facilitator, not an answer giver.

3) Don't be anxious... (mai gan cheong)

It's a loss when the teacher understands the text rightly, but fails to bring the group to that conclusion. I've always been horrible at teaching/talking (there had been some progress though, thank God), but as long as I have the opportunity to I'll keep trying.

Monday, September 18, 2006

Buffalo buffalo Buffalo buffalo buffalo buffalo Buffalo buffalo. - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

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Ah...languages are interesting (especially computer languages). Do check out the similar examples in other languages, like the Malay ("Sayang, sayang, sayang sayang sayang. Sayang sayang sayang?") and the Mandarin ("Ma ma ma ma ma ma ma ma ma ma") one. =D

Friday, September 15, 2006

Looking Back

It's been slightly over one year since I've committed to join BTPC, to learn and to serve God's people in whichever way possible here.

Looking back over the year, many many many things have happened, and many lessons learnt, from the subtle ones to the jarring and painful ones.

One of the most notable lessons was in terms of my pride: having been rescued from bad theology (I'm not pointing fingers at a particular group or whatsoever, but the simple fact is that I never came to know what Christianity was about in the first place till someone taught us) we came to see how bad the situation was both for ourselves and in Singapore. And unconsciously I came to have the mindset that anyone not affiliated with those that we know or doesn't have the same "eloquence"/Christian jargon as us would be automatically deemed as possibly heretic and treated as such.

(It's wrong to think like that, for it is also possible for a person to be unfaithful to the text in the bible and yet talk with the same language as us, and also possible for a person to be faithful to the text but for various reasons have a different language to a varying degree)

In addition to the scriptures repeatedly exposing my problem of pride, I've also had the opportunity to be corrected by observing others around. In working with the youths here (and bible studies together), the example of the deacon has repeatedly given me a glimpse of how humility (in thinking for others first) could look like, and how far I am from being like Christ.

Not that we shouldn't be aware about or point out wrong ideas about God and Jesus at all, but to make such quick decisions about a person's destiny is uncalled for. And in the either case it's the wrong thinking that need correction just as the right ones need to be reinforced.

As part (only a small part!) of my committing to join this group of Christians to learn and serve one another, I guess it's about time I did my transfer of membership to here =P this is truly a good church to join, though not perfected yet in Christ, but the pastor's accurate to the text when teaching, the people generally are committed to obeying God, and the chance to serve them. And that's what I think is important in a church...

Monday, September 11, 2006

Fun With Thresholding

One of the joys of programming is that you get to make something and see it work.

Part of my Final Year Project involves converting a colour image into black and white in the best (and fastest) possible way.

Here's some of the fun I got to do with the test program that I wrote:

Just a simple operation that we can perform really easily with Photoshop, etc. But it is simply different when something you make does these things instead~

Must. Not. Waste. Money....

CITS-notebook trade-in

Very tempting to trade in my (half corroded =P ) laptop and get a new one at student rates, but I guess I'll have to stop myself from doing this =P

Thursday, September 07, 2006


Finding myself in the middle of a war, what can I do?

The only way I could ever become like this solely is by God's work in me. I'm not that good a person myself to begin with.

If anything's going to progress (with our conscious effort), it'll be when we all fall on our knees before this great and almighty God and confess that we've done wrong.

Yes, we've all done wrong. We've not lived lives as God had designed. The only way out of the final consequence is to turn from our old ways and beg God for forgiveness by trusting in Jesus Christ.

What am I supposed to do? All the wise counsel in the world isn't enough, we must recognize that real wisdom comes only from fearing the Lord. And I must do the same also, else everything will amount only to nothing.

But if we fail to listen to God's biblical counsel, we'll really need to ask God to humble us..

Seeing God's family fight for the wrong reasons pains me the most, and the recent episode also caused by my stubbornness and pride. Coming up a close second, is to see my other family destroyed by sin, sin on everyone's part...

Thursday, August 24, 2006

The Lord Is Near

Rejoice in the Lord always.
Rejoice in the Lord always.
Let your gentleness be evident, for the Lord is near.

Do not be anxious about anything,
but in all things by petition and prayer.
With thanksgiving present your requests to the Lord.

Whatever is true,
whatever is noble,
whatever is right,
whatever is pure,
whatever is lovely,
whatever is (commendable?).
If anything is excellent
and worthy of praise,
think about these.
The only reason we should rejoice always...

Regardless of the situation at hand...

and now regardless of whether I'm facing the stress of not understanding my lectures and that I need 48 hours a day (not just 24)...

Not because Christians are just a bunch of naive, shortsighted people who just gloss over things and laugh it all off, but simply because the most important, eternal, issue has been settled already all by God's work of sending Jesus to the cross.

That is why we can rejoice (and be content) in all situations. That is why we should rejoice in all situations.

The song came as a good reminder at the right time. Though I will continue to face the stress for this upcoming year, I know there's no need to be depressed and crushed by the surrounding pressures.

Sunday, August 20, 2006

How To Write Unmaintainable Code

How To Write Unmaintainable Code

Really funny, yet painfully true (when we're on the receiving end of the 'merits' of writing such code) sometimes.

PS: It's not meant to be followed.

Friday, August 18, 2006

Start Right, Continue Right, End Right

When the dead are raised, it is a wonderful thing. This done not by our own effort, but solely by God's.

And the lesson in John 8 comes clearly: it's important to start off right by trusting in Jesus' words regarding himself, but it's equally important to carry on being grounded and growing in his word, really really important.

This warning couldn't come at a better time for myself, to obey Jesus as Lord and not to ignore him in the way I live my life, since I've already declared my faith in him.

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

Worried sick

So many things happening at the same time, so little time...

...but the most worrying of all, is the fact that many around are facing various things, and the most I can do for them is to guess, and pray...

Giving up on everything certainly has crossed my mind before, but it's not taken because I know the God that we've come to believe in has everything within his control still, and the task he's called us to is something that will not fail in the very end.

Thursday, July 20, 2006

Simply Sick

All deserve to die, and burn in hell.

Including all Christians, we all deserve to die, and burn in hell.

Especially me.

What can cure this sick man of his illness? The stupidity of going against the God who created us in the first place....warring against other countries, against our colleagues, against our friends, against our relatives, against our own family, against God himself...

This stupidity is resolved only in two ways:

in receiving the just punishment we deserve,


in God working in us by putting his spirit in us, so that we can trust in the one other person who took the punishment on our behalf.

Just sick, really sick, really.

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

Temporary Hiatus

Dear readers,

Wellllll...I will be continuing in my efforts to make better use of my time (to read, and to do stuff that're beneficial, not just mindless), so one of the things is that I'll pause (not stop!) blogging for the time being, unless I really do have the time or the reason to.

Not saying that blogging is what Christians shouldn't be doing, but some things are more important than others, and for me in my current circumstances blogging would probably have to go for the time being (I only have 24 hours a day. Any suggestions to extend time to 26 hours a day or more are welcome =D ).

I'm still very much contactable at my email address <>, so do drop me an email or comment here if you'd wish to know when I do update again =) Or alternatively you could suscribe to my Atom feed.

Meanwhile, may the grace of God in Jesus Christ be with you all, till He comes again to judge the living and the dead.


Sunday, July 09, 2006

Creating a log file the Notepad way

How to Use Notepad to Create a Log File

I think this is really really cool...

...but those who do agree with me on this are few... =P

Thursday, July 06, 2006

Bad Language / How to concentrate on writing

Bad Language / How to concentrate on writing

1. Switch off email.
2. Isolate myself.
3. Greed and guilt.
4. Stop with the blog already.
5. Get up early.
6. Little treats.
7. Chunking.
8. Go full screen.
9. Shitty first draft.
10. Change location.

Some tips on concentrating when need be ;) Think some of these are exactly what I should try, like the full screen thingy =P

Babyproof sharp corners with tennis balls - Lifehacker

I think this is pretty cool actually, and maybe even cheaper than getting proper covers? May come in handy in the future. =P

Wednesday, July 05, 2006


Learning from today's bible study, am reminded again about the unpleasantness of the message to non-believers...

...and even more unpleasant is the outcome of those who don't trust in the name of Jesus at the end...

I certainly do not want my friends to end up that way...and time IS short, we could go any moment, really.

Urgent, urgent!

Tuesday, July 04, 2006


I failed my IPPT today! My stamina got me killed this time man, failed the 2.4km run portion, horribly.

Oh well, not that I've never failed before, fail in many things many times liao, and those are far more important to worry about than this one.

Not sure whether will need to go for RT or not, but I think maybe no need eh. Check and see how...

Edit: No need to do RT! Those who're studying in institutes of higher learning no need to take RT =P better train hard for next year liao...and continue to work hard at taking care of the things that really do matter.

Saturday, June 24, 2006

FOM Retreat

Just came back today from a 3D2N camp with the youths.

Was quite stressed over the planning and all, with the little amount of time I had and the busy schedule, and I'm not the planning type of person myself. But thank God, there's Yifen, Andrew, Eugene and Wai to help with advice and to do some tasks. And also some of the youths and Maria who helped out with some other tasks which were just as important also.

Wai, Andrew and myself taught for this camp. We taught from the epistle of Philippians. Wai took most of the lessons and Andrew and myself took one each. For Andrew it was his first time teaching in such a manner, and for myself it was my third time teaching like this.

Actually, for me it's the most organised one (but still FAR from what I want to aim for) as compared to the other two (the listeners of the two can testify to that), and I think it did help to learn along the way from people like David Jackman and all about teaching from the bible. Hope to be able to continue to learn and practise more along the way. Certainly am very thankful to God for the many many many chances I have to teach, though I'd better try my best to improve: don't want the youths not to understand in the end...which'd defeat the main purpose of the study liao.

The last time I learnt from Philippians under WS (which was the first time for me also) I had a 'theme' for that year personally: to be others'-centered.

This time, it'll be this:
Philippians 1:27-30
Only let your manner of life be worthy of the gospel of Christ, so that whether I come and see you or am absent, I may hear of you that you are standing firm in one spirit, with one mind striving side by side for the faith of the gospel, and not frightened in anything by your opponents. This is a clear sign to them of their destruction, but of your salvation, and that from God. For it has been granted to you that for the sake of Christ you should not only believe in him but also suffer for his sake, engaged in the same conflict that you saw I had and now hear that I still have.

May God help us all to grow in knowing Christ, both individually and together as one.

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

Sunday, June 18, 2006

Living life God's way with parents

"Would be better to call your mum first to tell her that you're going home soon"

Am reminded once again on how gracious God had been to me in terms of my relation with my mum: the truth about how we should live our family lives, the understanding and conviction that comes only through the Spirit, and even though I had no idea how to go about things, God provided a sister who's able to help me learn. (and is still helping me in various ways)

Now, even though things have improved somewhat as compared to when I started on this, I've still a long way to learn and to improve in relating better to my mum. Not for the sake of being a 'good' person, not for the sake of living life with less stress from home, but simply because this is the only way to live: in thankful obedience to the God who made us and saved us in Christ.

Although I'll never be able to honour my mum perfectly as we were supposed to, but I hope and pray that with God's help, this may also come to be the means through which she understands clearly what it means to be a Christian.

Friday, June 16, 2006

The end of IA

The IA is over! Am really excited abt this being over, so that I can concentrate on preparing the talk for the retreat and all, but somehow feeling a bit sad already at leaving the work place, or the people there to be exact. Especially my project mates and the ones we play table soccer with ;) well,hope to be able to keep in contact with the fellow IA students at least!

Thinking about this...already makes me miss them liao, sort of...

But for now,it's on to killing that bug that was found this morning =S and preparing for the youth retreat!

Sunday, June 11, 2006


For those who don't know yet about this, I commend this highly to you ;) Really.

From Project Timothy, the upcoming bible conference from 15 to 16 July...

Going to church can sometimes be a bit of a mixed experience. There's great singing, visuals and friends but the snag comes when we have to sit through a boring talk on the Bible. Inexplicably, it manages to be dry, tedious and devoid of relevance and power. Yet we have a nagging worry that the Bible is necessary and should have a proper place in our Christian lives. But we struggle to figure out what that role is.

Maybe it is one tool among the many God has given us, and we can be free to major on the tool that suits us best?

Maybe it's the advanced tool meant mainly for intellectual people, who are the ones who are able to understand and enjoy it fully?

Maybe it's the tool that gives abstract ideas about God and tips for practical living has to be found from wisdom elsewhere?

This year's PTBC will zoom in on Psalm 119, a psalm that pulsates with love for God's word. The Psalmist's thirst and hunger for God's word challenges our modern, muted response to the Bible. The Psalm initiates us into the delight, comfort and liberation that come from knowing the word of God. In studying it, we might be able to recover something of the joy of engaging with God's word. Along with expositions on Psalm 119, there will also be thematic talks on how the word of God shapes the people of God. There will also be "Berean Small Groups" for the first time, to equip people to read the Bible for themselves.

Sign up now, and be renewed in your love for God's word.

Highlights of the weekend:

  • 3 Bible expositions of select passages from Psalm 119 by Christopher Ash
  • 2 Thematic talks on what the whole Bible teaches about God's word, its relationship to the church and how it shapes the people of God
  • NEW! Berean Small Groups to equip people to read the Bible for themselves
For enquiries, please call Lit Lam at 9423 4940 or email

To register, please click HERE.

Monday, June 05, 2006

Finger mice

Akihabara News - Use your fingers as mouse

Interesting...I'd buy one if it becomes available in Singapore...

*lub dub*...*lub dub*

New Biometric System Identifies People By Heart, Brain, Breathing Patterns

Never knew this could be possible, although something similar appeared in our FYP selection list...both scary and interesting sia...

Sunday, June 04, 2006

On Love

Just read The Book of Shadow's post titled Love, True Love. A timely reminder (from the letter to the Corinthians) of what I need to ask God for more of: love, which shows itself in these various ways.

OOP: Yeah, the January post is an indicator of how far back I am in terms of reading some blogs, heh heh.

Sunday, May 28, 2006



Okok, enough of drooling.

Saturday, May 27, 2006

At Some Point In Time

At some point in time, we were all ignorant of the true and living God. Coming to the same place together no less by God's sovereign control over all things.

At some point in time, we had the great priviledge of hearing God speak through His word, learning about Jesus Christ who is God himself.

At some point in time, we responded to His call at different points of time, to return to Him.

At some point in time, we grew in the knowledge of God, serving Him and others together.

At some point in time, moving on to different contexts, we kept in touch with some, and gradually out of touch with others.

At some point in time, we will stumble and fall. And we will continue to suffer living in a world tainted with man's rebellion against God.

At some point in time, we may or may not come together again for the sake of furthering the kingdom.

At some point in time, we definitely will be reunited when the Judge comes again. Glorified because of what Christ has done for us all.

From that point of time onward, there will be no more tears nor death. And the people of God will live happily ever after, together, with the King as their king.

Sunday, May 21, 2006

Small Surprise

A small gift from someone... ;)

Saturday, May 20, 2006

INDEPTH - Decoding DaVinci - Dominic Steele

Found this link to the sermon described as:
Dominic Steele from Christians in the Media helps his listeners think through the issues raised by the book behind the block-buster film, The Da Vinci Code.
Another possible resource to look into (for those looking for answers, but don't know where to start thinking) is this book.

Thursday, May 18, 2006

Faith and fatalism

Read this from Guidance and the Voice of God, just to share with you all:

(From chapter 5's summary, pg 48)
In the Bible, 'faith' is not fatalistic. It is not sitting back and letting God do it all. Faith is an active relationship of trust and dependence and it is expressed in thousands of ways. If we trust God's power and love towards us, then we will pray to him for our needs and thank him for all that he gives to us. We will listen to what he says and obey it. We will confidently follow his directions, knowing that they lead heavenward.

What hit me was that although not all of us hold that kind of understanding of 'let go and let God', but many (including myself) can improve in living out the implications of what we say: 'I trust God'.

Hope (and pray) to change in this area... =)

Saturday, May 13, 2006

Succesfully failing

The one thing that I never fail to do, is failing to do what's right.

True, I may do the right thing from time to time (and even that isn't the product of my own efforts), but in the end, perfection's not on this side of the resurrection, and much less to be found in my life.

To all whom I've not wanted the best for when doing things, I'm really really sorry. I certainly need God to continue to change me, and for me to use my brains a lot more.

Friday, April 28, 2006

Prayer and the Voice of God

Another book is out! A guide on Christian prayer, for 'new convert' and 'old bird' alike. You can take a look at the first chapter at the page also. One more book added to my to-get list...

Another book to seriously consider getting is Guidance & the Voice of God, would be good to read it for myself/have a copy or two afterward after so long...

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

The taxi driver

Took a cab down to work a couple of days ago, as I was running late for work, and I had a lot to do.

In the course of our conversations during the ride (which was started and ended with which is the better way to Tiong Bahru from home, by CTE or by Farrer road? Farrer road's better, btw) we talked abt his son and daughter.

The (older) son is relatively uneducated, works by driving for people (cranes or something like that) and doesn't get paid much, but the taxi driver really brightened up when he talked about him, because the son really is able to talk to the dad and all.

On the other hand, the younger daughter's more well educated, is a police force scholar, currently holds a 4-5K job in her mid twenties, gives a portion of her salary to her parents regularly and all. But the taxi driver doesn't even get to talk to her properly, doesn't really know what's going on in her life and all, and doesn't even care to use the money that she gives.

I've a long way to go in terms of being able to talk to my mum (and in the process take care of her) like this, with God's help...

Programming E-Books

For those who want to learn programming by yourself, here's a possible source to start from. Sorted by (programming) language.

Sunday, April 23, 2006

Easter gathering

On the evening of Good Friday, we had a dinner gathering at Justin's place. Just to share some pictures that I took with my (horrid) phone camera...

Chen preparing his Tom Yam soup. It was really good =)

Peixian cutting bread for the soup.

The potato thingy that Justin made.

Our 3SG.

Andrew Leong also cooked!

Tom Yum

Yifen trying to prepare to.... Ok, forget what I said.

Amos the 'main chef' there ;)

After the meal, the mad lively singing that ensued...some sang, some relaxed...

And at least one couldn't help but dance there =P

How to put on a Band Aid so it stays on all day

YouTube - How to put on a Band Aid so it stay on all day.

Japanese innovation...for those who ever needed to use plasters ;)

Wednesday, April 19, 2006


From the Google doctor's blog, a post about ergonomics (ignore the weird picture at the top of the post =P ) :
A few tips are the following:
--Breaks should be taken every 30-45 minutes for at least 5 minutes. If you need assistance there are free downloadable timers that will help remind you to do so.
--Stretch your arms/hands/neck/back during the breaks. This yoga site demonstrates some samples exercises. Other sites are listed below.
--Posture alignment should be maintained. Don't slouch in the couch with the laptop.
-- Work station should be reviewed initially and with each transfer.
Adjust chair, monitor, keyboard, mouse, laptop. Alternate keyboards and mice periodically.
--Shift your gaze from the computer screen to the distance. Don't forget to blink!
--Limit non-essential computer usage. This may be heresy but give the surfing/gaming/emaling/text messaging a rest.
-- If pain occurs or persists, see your doctor who may recommend wrist brace, ice packs, anti-inflammatory medication such as ibuprofen, cortisone injections, physical therapy, and most importantly rest to allow healing. Do not procrastinate in addressing your symptoms. The sooner the better.

Some sites that may be helpful:
Harvard RSI Action
RSI exercises
RSI Page
Safe Computing Tips
Alternative and Ergonomic Keyboards
Alternative Pointing Devices

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

Have been greatly encouraged to see how God's word can change lives, as well as give strength for His people to live lifes His way, bearing up under immense pressure from the world that hates Christ and all who are in Him.

May the (painful, but much needed) lessons stay embedded in my heart, and may my heart not turn as rotten as it had, ever again, with God's help.

Thursday, April 06, 2006

Something nice

Both the movie, and the company ;)

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

Vine's Complete Expository Dictionary of Old and New Testament Words

If you have been to yesternight's Project Timothy's Workshops (Getting More Out Of Your Bible), you'd have heard about this book.

I want one. =P

On another* note, probably we can get one to share within our church or smth.

[*: edit]

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

What is Jesus' Mission?

Have been listening to the sermons titled Simply Christianity for the past few days.

The third sermon in the series is titled "What is Jesus' Mission?" coming from the passage of Luke 15:

Jesus was being critiqued (in the Pharisees' hearts) when he associated himself with the sinners and traitors (tax-collectors) of the time. Just how we'd expect important people to associate with other important people, likewise they expected Jesus ("He's God, isn't he?") to associate with the "holy" people like the religious leaders, not with the common person, much less a sinner and those deemed to be traitors!

Jesus responds with three parables, all explaining the same point, but to different degrees: God's really on about saving the lost. And that's exactly what Jesus came to do.

The third parable about the prodigal son shows the extent of this. God doesn't view us as one in the few billions of people on this earth, but rather rejoices greatly everytime one comes back to Him, and into the kingdom of Christ, like how the father joyously celebrated the prodigal son's return.

Who then, is the prodigal son? It's no other than us who've not acknowledged the one who made us, and have gone about living our lives in rebellion (actively or passively) against Him.

Like the sheep we're helpless in our sin, and can't do anything that's enough to redeem ourselves, that's why we need someone else to help us, and thank God he sent his only Son, to pay the penalty for us, that we might have a restored relationship with the Father, now and forevermore.

Time to consolidate, again

Always have many thoughts that get lost in (null) at the end of the day, as shown from my inability somewhat to remember what happened the day before. And since this blog's a place where I want to consolidate some of my thoughts, as well as let the reader into them somewhat, I guess I'll (try to) start writing more regularly (maybe daily?) at least.


Many many things have happened over the past week: some were good, some were bad, some were just simply too saddening to think about sometimes.

Many many times I've failed horrendrously at loving others, just now included, I know.. (it's really easy to hide, just keep silent)

Many times I've disobeyed God, and the warnings have been aplenty and clear, I hope this will change, soon...

Thursday, March 02, 2006

Fulfilled in Christ

Father I fear what lies round the corner
already I'm gasping for breath, grasping at straws
I can't see a handspan into the future
I'm scared of what life has in store

But You said do not be anxious about anything
bring all things to you through prayer with thanksgiving
and the peace of God which passes understanding
will guard my heart and mind in Christ
Let the peace of God which passes understanding
guard your heart and mind in Christ

If You feed mere sparrows, dress the lilies in the field
should I fret over tomorrow, my clothing and my needs
these questions find their answer when you gave your Son to die
You've raised him as Lord, we will be glorified

So I will not be anxious for You will provide
all that I need to stand firm in Christ
I will sing in Your presence, I will never be forsaken
for You've given me your Word fulfilled
I will sing in Your presence, I will Never be forsaken
for You've given me your word fulfilled in Christ
Your Word is fulfilled in Christ
fulfilled in Christ
Sarah Oh

Sunday, February 26, 2006


Gal 3:1 - O foolish Galatians! Who has bewitched you? It was before your eyes that Jesus Christ was publicly portrayed as crucified.
We're currently studying the book of Galatians in BTPC. The Galatians have been called "fools" and "bewitched",and all because they have lost their focus: having started off by believing in the gospel for their salvation (faith), they have deserted the gospel and have trusted in works to bring them to the goal of their christian lives.

The problem for them wasn't in lawkeeping as a result of being saved, but rather lawkeeping as a means to attain the goal of glorification in Christ, now that they've started off on this journey by believing in the message of Christ for their salvation (Gal 3:2).

We do have the tendency to rely on works to bring us to God, even as Christians who've started off on the right footing. The thing comes when some of the "Christian" things we do become a must for us to do personally, or else our salvation seems to be at stake, things like going to an established church("You don't attend a church in a proper building? Maybe you're not really christian.."), singing songs in a particular manner, serving in a "frontline ministry" like in the band, or as song leaders, or even as bible study leaders!

On another note, I've been an absolute fool, bewitched by nothing other than my own stupid thinking, in persisting in living my life in ways that seriously go against godly living and also in not trying to live my life the way I should be. All these done with the full knowledge and understanding of the consequences of such behaviour (we came from there) and of what Christ had come down to this world to do, saving us from our past wretched state, for a restored relationship with God and others.

With this,what words can describe myself? Not just a fool who thinks that there aren't any consequences to sin, but rather an obstinate fool who persists in doing such idiotic things! And an unrepentant one at that, not living for the good of others..

I have not loved enough(ask the people who are closest to me, they can definitely attest to that), and I have not been fully obedient. I can only pray to God and beg for forgiveness in Christ, whilst asking him to enable me to live my life the way I should be, for if we couldn't start on the journey by our own effort, we definitely cannot finish the course entirely by our own effort either.

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

For the Love of God - Feb 20

Just sharing this with you all, hope it helps you wherever you are.
February 20
1 Corinthians 7

WHEN PAUL BEGINS TO RESPOND to the questions raised by the Corinthians (“Now for the matters you wrote about,” 1 Cor. 7:1), the first thing he treats is marriage, divorce, and related issues (1 Cor. 7). And the first part of his discussion deals with sex within Christian marriage (1 Cor. 7:1 - 7).

(1) Typical of many of his responses to this divided church, Paul here displays his “Yes . . . but” pastoral sensitivity. “It is good for a man not to marry. But . . . each man should have his own wife, and each woman her own husband” (7:1 - 2). “I wish that all men were as I am. But each man has his own gift from God” (7:7). In short, Paul must answer not only their questions but their extremes. Ideally he must do so by bringing the factions together, commending each for whatever light it brings to the subject, while nevertheless helping each side perceive that it does not have all the truth on the matter and is in fact distorting wisdom.

(2) The NIV reads, “It is good for a man not to marry” (7:1). The Greek literally reads: “It is good for a man not to touch a woman.” The NIV translators assume this is a euphemism for marriage. But more recently scholars have shown that this is not the case. Apparently there were Christians in Corinth who advanced an ascetic agenda. Paul is prepared to say there is merit in that perspective: after all, later in the chapter he points out the advantages of being single in gospel ministry. But asceticism is not the only value; indeed, it may become an idol, or a way of disparaging God’s good gifts, or of refusing to recognize the diversity of gifts God bestows on his people. After all, marriage relieves sexual pressure; to deny sexual pressure and cling desperately to celibate asceticism may lead to gross sexual sins ( as it often has). The societal answer, biblically speaking, is not open sex or lasciviousness, but marriage. That is not the only value of marriage, of course, but it is a real one.

(3) Notice how, in the arena of marriage, Paul insists that sexual privileges and responsibilities are reciprocal: e.g., “each man should have his own wife, and each woman her own husband” — which is a long way from treating the woman like chattel. [?cattle] How many reciprocal statements are found in this paragraph?

(4) Within marriage, neither partner is to deprive the other of normal sexual intercourse except under three conditions: (a) by mutual consent; (b) for the purpose of devoting themselves to prayer; (c) and even then only temporarily. Thus, according to Scripture, sex must never be used as a weapon, offered as a bribe, or withheld as a punishment.

Copyright 2005 D.A. Carson

Grace To You

Have been listening to John MacArthur's teaching for the past few days in the Grace to You podcasts, they are quite good (in terms of faithfulness to the bible), although his way of delivery made me want to laugh whilst listening to it on the train initially (the American way of giving speeches, virtually shouting most of the time =D ).

A couple of podcasts that I listened to that were particularly helpful, and especially since 1) I do have a problem with self-discipline, and 2) it's usually not talked about from the bible's perspective, if at all.

The transcripts:
Part 1
Part 2

(If you want the podcasts you can email me, I have been archiving them since mid-January, exactly what crazy computer engineers would do)

Sunday, February 19, 2006


No, it's not the A&E in a hospital, but rather Eugene and Amy's wedding (with the initals reversed). Went for their wedding yesterday,and also their wedding dinner this evening.

What touched my heart in particular, was how the love shown by Eugene and Amy to this particular american friend of theirs whilst they were studying in Australia, and over time as a result this person came to know the love of Christ, which was also why they could love others. Their american friend came over all the way from the US, to share both in the wedding celebration, and also his testimony/story.

This is my first time attending a wedding dinner with my local church, and although it was nothing less to be expected of them, but nevertheless the conversation topics over the dinner table ranged from mindless banter and jokes (some exceedingly cold) to proper catching up with one another (as much as was appropiate at such a setting) and things with regard to 'ministry'.

Looking forward to more fellowship and gospel growth together with these fellow brothers and sisters in Christ, really..

Sunday, February 12, 2006


Sorry for the lack of posts since monday, the week had been hectic with things: things related to "work" (my IA), and things related to the church of Christ.

Looking back at the week, it had certainly been insane (and worryingly congested), with much of my processor time being taken up by the tsunami that happened.

In conclusion to filtering and thinking through about things, I (personally) certainly need to repent of some things, like not caring enough for others where they are, and also going to the opposite extreme in wanting to treat ladies with purity, especially sisters in Christ. Praying that God will allow me to repent in action, since counting the things already declared, there aren't anything else that needs to be said, but done.

Looking at the many things big and small that happened, I can only thank God: for saving us in Christ from our future judgement, for the giving of His Spirit that enables us to understand the scriptures and to obey Him in loving others, for not leaving us alone in this world but granting us relationships with fellow brothers and sisters in Christ, for the status of marriage which I'm able to work toward currently with someone dear to me, and for her herself also.

Thanks also, to those who've helped me to think and have shown love in your concern, it was much needed and appreciated, really...

Am not sure how things will turn out from here on (then again most things are uncertain, except for Christ's return to judge this world), but whatever happens, we can only trust in God's sovereignty as we all make the effort to live our lives the way we should be, as God's people.

Monday, February 06, 2006


Really rebuked to the point of no excuse, not by man, but by God.

The castle of escapist pride I inadvertently built became nothing more than a blinding prison to me. What a fool I've been!

But thank God, that the gospel of Christ that sets us free from sin is the very same gospel that continues to open our eyes.

The only thing that comes now is the response to it (literally another two ways to live) : to live for others' good because Christ had done ultimately so for us, or to continue in my blind pride and live in my own prison.

Sounds like a very obvious decision to make eh? But the simplest of choices can be the hardest to make. May God grant me the strength to make the correct decision by His Spirit...

With regard to some other issues, will need to think through on them though, it doesn't seem quite right still for some of them...Pray that God will allow me to think wisely on these things.

Sunday, February 05, 2006


Born into sin, we could do nothing about it, except to continue to make God angry at us.

But after being saved by God, through believing in Christ's death and resurrection, we are fully justified in God's eyes, and start the journey where we continue to fight against sin (though we're fully free from the penalty of it).

It is hard, and at times we fall, not knowing where to put our faces when we do.

But the solution is to continue as how we started in the first place: if Christ's work on the cross solely can pay for our sins, then it should solely be the thing we turn to humbly to ask for forgiveness when we fall. After which, it's back to living our lives, trying our very best not to fall into that again.

Running the race is tiring, with the cycle of falling and repenting, and at times we want to "break out" of this cycle altogether. But God's promises still hold: if we persevere in living in obedience to Christ, He will surely save us when He comes again.

Thank God all these will end! I really can't imagine any reason to continue in this (or to do any good in the first place) if there won't be any accounting for what we've done in our lives. But that, also, is a stern reminder for us not to be on the wrong side of the judgement seat (so to speak) when Christ comes again.

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

Found this (click on picture to view larger version) as I was browsing through St Barnabas Anglican Church's 2005 sermon site, notice any name familiar? ;) Or am I slow in knowing that he's there? =|

Wonder how his preaching is like, have never heard him teach before.

PRC Camp '05 Newton group pics

Pictures for (mainly) my group are up here.


Tuesday, January 24, 2006

Trusting by obedience

The sermon on Ruth 3 last sunday was on trusting in the kindness of God by obeying Him.

That was clearly shown in Ruth 3 as Ruth never went after the younger men of her own age (v10) and that she didn't take things into her own hands even though she was without a family, and that after a few months the (barley) harvest's almost over, yet the redeemer whom she met has not done anything as yet.

The simple implications of us trusting in God by obeying Him (not acting according to what we perceive as best, contrary to what the bible has revealed) was there too.

With the tightening of my wallet due to the extra spending during the holidays, I've totally stopped giving to the church in terms of money, actually thinking that my own sustenance is more important than contributing to the church in this manner. Most probably will rebudget my spending for these few months, keeping in mind to still contribute, that the gospel work can continue being adequately funded.

Couldn't Help Noticing: You need more dating

"...So are our churches set up primarily for people who are married? Do they consistently separate out singles from the rest of the flock simply because they are single? Do singles separate themselves out from the rest of the flock because they feel like they don’t fit in and no one understands them? Do the marrieds in our midst drop inappropriate comments and hints about getting married to their single friends and do the singles ostracise them for it?

As the body of Christ, redeemed by the same blood, whether single or married, divorced or widowed, Jew or Gentile, slave or free, our beliefs render such behaviour unacceptable. Single people are not second-class citizens just because they’re single. Nor are marrieds an insular group who’ve completely forgotten what it’s like to be single. But we are all part of the bride of Christ, waiting for our final union with our loving Bridegroom at that last great wedding supper of the Lamb. God may not have a wife now: but one day he will."

A good post, and reminder, on how we're to view marriage and singleness in the church...


Tuesday, January 17, 2006

Weird: The mind and the feelings

It's weird.

Funny how I hold true to some truths regarding some things, but yet feel things differently at times still.

Either the outworkings of the (still) sinful self (for now, till Christ returns), or the indication that I have not come to be clear on what implications these truths have.


Sunday, January 15, 2006

ARPC Music Camp

Went for ARPC's music camp over the weekend at the NACLI campsite. It was a good weekend of being reminded of and learning the biblical theology behind music, and also on learning some basics related to music (and bass, for myself).

Many of us from the music groups in BTPC went, most of whom are related to/in the youth group.

Didn't really have much time to interact with the other particpants of the camp there (whom were all from ARPC: the bands, TNYF, etc) although we got to play with some of them during our breaks. Hope to be able to keep in touch with encourage them as fellow partakers of the hope that we all have.

Many of the biblical theology behind music taught there was a good reminder of what we've learnt before, but one of the implications would need more thinking through: in response to the churches' overstressing of people's emotional responses especially through music, (some?) evangelicals have gone to the other extreme of being totally emotionless during our services, etc. Well, I certainly do think that way at times (even though I still do feel, little as I realised it), would be good to think through about what I say, and what I do pertaining to the "cold hearted" Christian.


Will be starting my Industrial Attachment at DSTA tomorrow, it's exciting to see what's coming in the pipeline (not because only of my IA), but at the same time I do FEEL like giving up altogether at times, but remembering the sacrifice Jesus Christ gave in his love for us, I think it'd be far better if I continued to labour on for the sake of the elect.

Thursday, January 12, 2006

Struggling? Good!

"A struggling Christian is a healthy Christian"
Something that was brought up during today's Romans 7 bible study, an apt reminder...

Something I wanted to write in here last week: Funny how I don't expect people to be able to make time for me to talk to/be accountable to especially in the areas which I need help in, when I'd certainly make time for anyone who asks to meet up to talk about anything serious. One thing to change as part of being serious in dealing with sin itself.

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

What a man should know about a woman

Interesting sermon from PJ as


Tuesday, January 10, 2006

Hee Hee Hee

(Will be sharing more of my thoughts more often again, in the hope of encouraging whoever reads, or simply letting people know what's happening in and around my life)


Had a gathering with the youths, and some of the newcomers from the christmas evangelistic chalet last month came too. Originally were supposed to go to Pulau Ubin to cycle, but with the torrential downpour the past few days and the intermittent showers today also we decided instead to spend the day at the Parns'.

After meeting up, we played a game (planned by Wai and Maria mainly) where we went around a bit of Singapore, and after having lunch at Marina Square we went back to the Parns' and played more games, including seeing who can stuff more marshmallows in their mouth and saying "I'm a chubby bunny", and the much feared Polar Bear game.

We played till almost 6pm, when Fen and I had to leave for our respective homes. But before that, the situation did get a bit too rowdy I think..

On the afterthoughts, have been wondering whether being so laughable-at is really such a good thing for ministry or not, I mean that it's good that I can 'help people to relax' in different settings, but it's really quite detrimental for honest sharing of lives if the conversation topics never go beyond the superficial and are always on things that do not matter ultimately.

With the particular combination of additional 'crazy people' around it does exacerbate the problem somewhat, but on the other hand it could just simply be me: in not really knowing how to show it when it's time to be really serious? Or worse, not knowing at times when I should be serious.

Whichever the case, it would be good to continue working on the seriousness issue since it has already been brought up a couple of times to me before already, and the growth of those under my 'care' (can't think of a better word yet) is a whole lot more important than me being a clown.

Thursday, January 05, 2006

Maybe You've Been Brainwashed Too

Interesting article..What do you think?

Read more here

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

Bethany Trinity Presbyterian Church website

The webspace and the domain's been secured! The basic site should be coming up in a couple of days... =)))))

Tuesday, January 03, 2006


Many thoughts to blog about, but...

Maybe they will come up someday, or somehow...