Wednesday, November 26, 2003

Trust....

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, lean not on your own understanding
In all of your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight
Don't worry about tomorrow, He's got it under control
Just trust in the Lord with all your heart, and He will carry you through

Lord sometimes it gets so tough
To keep my eyes on You when things are going rough
Then I turn my eyes up to the sky and I hear Your voice, it says to me....


*can't catch* not to worry about the troubles of this world I have overcome...


Trust, SNTR, Songs From The Book track 11

back in the room

came back hall to get my stuff (mainly clothes) for the retreat, and will not be back to blog prob until after my CF annual camp.

yay...going to go malaysia for 4 days... =P

i'm feeling better, thanks for those who prayed, i don't know whether things are ok, but i'll be alright

will blog as and when i can, or after the camps, am looking forward to december, where i'll have more time to do stuff, though the list of things to do in dec has grown to become quite large liao...oh oh...but anyways will be more free liao then, then can spend time with my friends
=)

haha..my good friend finishes her last paper today, come to think of it....lol congrats! =)

Monday, November 24, 2003

...

....
I don't know what to do for my friend, except to pray...

but whatever happens...well...?
...

Update

Have been quite busy these few days, with the church retreat stuffs and all that coming up

Have been staying home for the past few days, so no computer at home = no internet access to check up my stuffs, etc.

Just to let you guys out there know that I'm still alive...lol...

Had our CF fun-day on friday, and even though there were so many things not firmed up, and we realised last minute, and it drizzled, and me missing the last meeting meant that I was totally not in the know of what's gonna happen, but God really was good, come to think of it, I have NO idea how'd it all turn out so well the way it did...divine intervention eh? But quite paiseh, cos a lot of things think I was supposedly supposed to do, but never do, all neglected due to other things to do? But it sure wasn't pleasant going back hall on Thurs night to realise that no one had any minutes or updates, then had to start arranging stuffs last minute....didn't even have the first aid kit for one, thank God no one got hurt. Gosh..should have asked around after the last meeting....*tries to remember*

Left the fun-day early to go Changi for our ministry encouragement chalet...even though I missed most of the food already (awww man), but had a really great time in fellowship with the rest...lol...but some of the games we played were...ermm.....quite gross...hahah.....this weird game called Would You Rather?...lol....quite funny...but gross (I got my hand spat upon)

Really thank God for my cell group, had BS with them again today, and yeah, it was really great...think that even though it's only temporary (so to speak?) until our new cell groupings are finalised, but I think I really like this group...how to say ah? As in this one is really an answered prayer lor, a group to be accountable to, to learn together the Word, and also to learn from? Yeah... =)

I don't know though, I mean..relationship problems are, well, problematic, but one with a friend, whom you only want to be able to talk to NORMALLY as a friend only? Even that also cannot ah....gosh...it's like so darned awkward, till you'd rather all are strangers to each other, at least not that bad ah...but I know such things cannot be reversed, but built upon? Probably it's how much you're (or both parties) are willing to put in, but....aiyah...dunno lah...kek-sim ah. I guess I really hate to have bad blood amongst people, unless it's really that the person is totally screwed up? (different issue, different story, but that guy's one of a kind man) But what's wrong....??? I want to give this up to the Lord, and I have, I know that it means trusting Him in this totally, somehow, but yet I know the process won't be all easy nor nice, but at LEAST....I have a backer....

It's 4 am, I think I wrote a whole lot of crap ah...hahaha...don't even understand what I'm talking about...time to sleep, cya all ard in Dec and all that, will try to blog and read as and when I can, till then, take care all of ya, esp the NUS pple who're still having exams...lol =P (but really, all the best leh...)

Monday, November 17, 2003

I'm back~

Have been (and have to still) taking care of my house/dog/plants/fish at home these past few days: mum's away in Malaysia for course and brother's in US, and hence am having a no-technology retreat of sorts for a bit lol, no computer at home, my music player died, there's nothing worth watching on TV, so there! lol...thank God...

Only thing I truly miss online is blogging, and reading up on others' blogs?

Will be helping out at the student care centre and friends these few days, but all of a sudden quite a lot of changes and unsettled things on my timetable, and coupled with my terrible time keeping, it spells disaster....stress ah, now a lot of things come piling in one shot

oh man,...one of my most stressful holidays....arghs...lol

have dyed my hair...not too light colour ok...and it's not ah-beng or pai-kia ok! =P it's erm, good fashion sense? lol...bhb....but i think i like it.. =)

haha,....as for getting married? lol i know i have to, i don't think i have such self-control, but not now lah duh!! well, in His timing lah yeah? haha so sister (you know who you are), no need to help me get married for my next birthday present!! lol....

do pray for me for these few weeks if can? My timetable's strangling the life out of me...lol....will try to check on you guys' blogs too if i can

back to take care of my dog!! *woof*!

Thursday, November 13, 2003

i want to die!!!!!

oh wait, oops typo it's dye
=P

Wednesday, November 12, 2003

wow

wah....went for wedding rehearsal today

so niceeeeeeee.... =)

do i want to get married in the future?
erm, yes!
lol duhhhhh
siao liao
*slaps myself*

Tuesday, November 11, 2003

ZZZzzzZZZ

Wah...so rested today...woke at 2.30pm today...one of the latest to date since...don't know when! lol...

rest rest rest....

I think I'm terrible at interpreting poems haha
duhhhh

Sorry to those who'll feel bad at not being able to get so much rest...lol....but sharing God's blessings wat... =)

Monday, November 10, 2003

It's over~~

No prizes for guessing what's over...
=P

Saturday, November 08, 2003

maths down

it's (almost) over~~~

as usual got killed by the maths paper too lol
hope you guys had a batter time than I had

saw yong jie (from my cg one) today too lol

Nemo~

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What Finding Nemo Character are You?

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Time to sleep...and i'm a kid?!!?
lol...second last paper tml....

Friday, November 07, 2003

lazy pig

haha....want to revise a bit for maths paper tml...but dun feel like ah...lazyyyyyy.....
ZZZzzzZZZZzz.....

Thursday, November 06, 2003

I'm alive!

Really really thank God for the worship team: just came back from worship prac in church, and it's really kewl how relaxing it can be to just worship even when practising (and playing badly lol), especially with people you're familiar with..

Mum's down with a itchy neck rash, seen 3 docs already...do help pray for her too?

On the way back to hall, somehow, came to me that I needed to KNOW that I'm submitting my feelings to Him and not holding them back. Seemed that STILL have some "residue" of the past coming to irritate/haunt/disturb me time and again...sigh...know that I'm still human and all that, but just go away man....grrrr......

The exams killed us, but not for long! It's gonna be over soon~~~~

Die'ded

the hall became a slaughterhouse

'nuff said

Wednesday, November 05, 2003

thirsty....

*pant pant*
need a drink...
pant pant...

lol...tml got programming paper! thanks again Tree for the encouragements so far

on the way back to hall from hostel saw Sally (a hong kong'er student), she has just finished her last SECOND paper today!!! arghz!!!
lol...but it sure was great to see her again after so long, pity she can't join us for the annual camp....

time to bathe...and get a drink? not in the shower lah! don't be mad...

Tuesday, November 04, 2003

Monday, November 03, 2003

??!

gosh...what on earth am i saying?!
i need to go sleep early tonight....lol

the coward

feeling very sian now, feeling a bit tired ah haha...

so many things running through my mind now, but not a single moment have been able to focus on any one of them, flitting from one thought to another

have been trying to avoid my friend of late, this sucks, it really does, but i really cannot take it as nothing has happened and move on without any clearing up, and yes, i DO have trust issues, but hell, even if so it means to be able to get my trust will need a lot more than just being nice, but hey, there ARE people i trust ok

hell, going on and on in a maddening train of thoughts, non-stop, yet no focus whatsoever, and all the time have been trying to drown these away by blasting jpop and dance music so loud that i cant even hear myself think, just staring mindlessly into thin air when travelling, and just trying to enjoy the music, which happens to be one of the last few refuges i have left, short of God

am really concerned for my sister-in-christ, she can't seem to remember any of her stuffs she needs for her exams, but not that worried, know that God'll take care of her, but really hope that she'll be able to remember, short of the last weird crappy method that works: stories (???)

i miss the days in jc, so fun, (still) so carefree, though i won't want to relive them again? was too childish then lol, then again, as if now very mature lydat lol

God~~~~..........