Tuesday, September 30, 2003

I'm back! In my room...

Had CF Corporate meeting today, must say I really enjoy worshipping God together and learning more about the Word! (today's message was really quite good)

Hope to be able to get to know these wonderful brother and sisters in Christ more.. =)

Monday, September 29, 2003


nothing to say for now...

off to work!

Sunday, September 28, 2003

Give Them All (To Jesus)

Are you tired of chasing pretty rainbows?
Are you tired of spinning round and round?
Wrap up all those shattered dreams of your life
And at the feet of Jesus, lay them down.

Give them all, give them all, give them all to Jesus
Shattered dreams, wounded hearts, and broken toys.
Give them all, give them all, give them all to Jesus
And He will turn your sorrows into joy.

He never said you only see sunshine,
He never said there would be no rain.
He only promised a heart full of singing
About the very thing that once brought pain.

Matthew 11:28
"Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest."

Funny that I remember last time they used it as an (very corny, yet funny lol) offering song in sunday school!

The surveys are over!!!!

Just finished the last leg of (very very tiring) surveys in the punggol area, and jus to say that i'm really very encouraged by the people who went all the way for the 5 weeks of gruelling walking around and asking questions, throwing away our own faces and embarrassing ourselves more often than not! hahaha...

and also my survey partner, though today was not feeling too well, but still went for the survey anyway (nv pang seh me also....thank God ah!)...

ah...........wat to say? =)

Saturday, September 27, 2003


hwah...everyone all celebrating their birthdays, etc, then realised I didn't really celebrate mine! (21 yrs even ok!)

and just about the same number of people gave presents (2?), awww....

hahaha....mad liao, doing lab report can think of such stuff...hahaha

back to work!!!

Friday, September 26, 2003


Thank God for the brothers and sister in Christ in my life, all of them!

had prayer meet today....was great, though it only went the same way, but also played guitar for the worship too hehe

so fun, and the miracle of it all was that we had NO practise okay...hehe thank God, but i played the last song far too slow than what the person leading the worship intended it to..

oops! X-p

(non verbal communication)

things learnt during lecture (!!!!)

time to let go of a lot of things, so many things...? excess baggage? =P

aiyah.........not concentrating!!!!!

so many things!

today, so many things happened! or at least in my mind (again)!

haha...first it rained the WHOLE night and day, but the moment when i went out to meet my friend, the rain stopped, became a nice drizzle only...hehe thank God man =P no need to use umbrella (which i realy hate to use)

got my second part of my birthday present (after so long!) from my friend, a Fruits Basket anime set...haha...quite nice leh, quite a big part of it's "handmade" lol...nice leh =)

jus realised that I've stopped reading the book (Boy Meets Girl by Joshua Harris) for a very long time, came to realise that as I continued to read the book, the more I learnt, and realised, but the more my conscience was assailed by all the wrong things I did in the past...anyways time to continue to finish the book! and pass it on to others that they may learn too.. =P


Thursday, September 25, 2003

Haloscan's down


stupid error on my blog!!

.. =( ??????

i feel sad, really

is it worse to keep your silence when you know that you have (really strong) thoughts abt an issue, or really go all out to help out?

i dunno whether it's my fault to have provided a "listening ear" to things and not given advice properly, or what?

this is darned screwed up man
p.s.: pls, this is my blog, dun even blast me here, it sux =(

Wednesday, September 24, 2003

I think I'm bored


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ah...lectures' coming up soon....

Man oh man oh man.... =(

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Tuesday, September 23, 2003

Sunday, September 21, 2003

Weekend lessons

Just wanna thank you guys who have been visiting and adding in comments here and there, think it's nice of you guys to drop by yeah? =)

Anyway, I realised that I usually learn a hell lot during weekends somehow (okok, a WHOLE lot), lol, this week's service, was scheduled to play the guitars for service (which I've not played guitars for far too long, fingers have gone SOFT, and the guitar was a folk guitar, steel strings, ouch ouch, and to add to it, have only been playing bass guit all these yrs, so have the tendency to mute a lot of strings hahaha), and the practise was TERRIBLE man tell you, but this morning, the service went totally fine! Guess when we really all just worship during the service, things ALWAYS turn out fine, which in turn reminded me of one of the things I loved abt being in the Music min in Hope, that every service, worship in itself is a miracle! heehe...really...but guess somewhere the focus got lost, and have slowly degraded to the point where I just happily rely on what I already know (which anyway was taught by Him too) instead of relying on Him to make things okay, yeah...

the great kick in the butt, even though painful (my fingers are still smarting as I type this blog), is, well, a good kick in the butt yeah! hahaha

hehehe....some of us got anointed with oil during service, those who wanted to receive the Holy Spirit again, and have been running around the whole day with the oil on my forehead till nighttime! oh man...

Thank God for great brothers and sisters in Christ too, of whom without them I wouldn't have had such opportunities to learn and grow too =)

One thing came to my mind though, seems that a lot of people's online or "sms" personalities are different from the way they act in person to you physically in person? I wonder why though.....?

Friday, September 19, 2003


Donated blood today...hehehe...so long nv donate liao, quite fun thou lol, though I still hate needles and blood (when it's not in a bag!)
wonder how many people's gonna donate...?

Giving/taking advice

Evaluating Advice

NO ONE HAS "any right to counsel others who is not ready to hear and follow the counsel of the Lord." This quote from A. W. Tozer reminds me of the responsibility we have in giving advice to others. It is a serious thing to give counsel, and it is also a serious step to take the counsel of our friends. So often we can give quick advice to one another without truly understanding the situation or without pure motives. Part of godly character is knowing how to evaluate the advice we receive and in turn to offer sound and wise counsel.


Thursday, September 18, 2003

Back to my room!

Just had another rest day (today no lessons), before I'm gonna study later, and yeah just dropped by my blog to take a look, lol

abt the lab, it was the electronics lab, cos it was very very much like sec sch physics that day that's y it was so easy lol, but then again i DO enjoy prog labs too haha...call me weird, but I think I'd rather enjoy my education here whilst I learn abt stuff too? =P

Aiyah time to study soon...and the clock is ticking down...for ym oral presentation~~~ *shivers* i dun like to talk in front of people thou...scary~~~

Wednesday, September 17, 2003

Trusting God's Work

Recall a time in your past when you saw God work through circumstances in your life to bring something about.

We all are the actors in a big big play, and that the Director has everybody's part planned and accounted for already...thank God for that man...

Have to do an oral presentation starting the week after liao...gosh...and dun even haf a topic yet!!! How??? Dunno what to talk abt leh....

Tuesday, September 16, 2003


Ah...i love labs man...haha so fun!

The Protected Mind

Had my cg today...funny how so many things can change (for the better?) within a span of a few hours?

Actually dunno whether should be putting this online anot, but then again, the purpose of this blog? And also those who read this probably are a LITTLE interested at least, or don't know who the heck I am! LOL. So here goes...

Actually, these few days (weeks actually come to think of it?) have had a lot of really-not-so-nice thoughts running through my mind, not that I wanted it? But amongst them like: "Those people are so fake", "All just wanting attention amongst themselves only", and even "Why the heck you want attention from people?! So stupid..." Have been thinking like that (unwittingly) recently of a LOT of people lor...not really a nice feeling lor...

then saw a groups of my friends today? And thought of exactly the same things about them...

but all till after cg today, think it was better? yeah...

Well, don't know why it started? But noted one thing, it was only directed at people (duh) whom I'd really like to know more lor...and also all those crap...oh well


Monday, September 15, 2003


Am feeling sad...or melancholic whatever you call it...ah...
dunno y either??

anyways hope my teacher friends are still alive after their first day training at monfort lol =P

yay...later got cg,.... =)

Sunday, September 14, 2003

Chiong ah~~~

wah....yesterday (saturday) got headache the whole day...end up nv do anything the whole day? lol...later must chiong my tutorials liao ah...


Saturday, September 13, 2003


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Work lah!

I wanna do work
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I will do work
I will do work
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Friday, September 12, 2003

My roomie's a Godsend

What else can I say? Thank God...

Thursday, September 11, 2003

The new addition...FLASHy? Lol

Just added in something new at the top...hehehe...any comments? (hope no blastings!)

Study time

Study study study... =P

haiyoh....i ok, now roomie's turn to have sore throat and flam and all those crap that comes with it...think should drink more water too?

Can only pray and hope that he gets better soon lol...

okok...back to study!

Wednesday, September 10, 2003


Got this in a mail, wonder how true is it?

What are some things we do no understand...until....

Here's a little list:


JOY - until we face sorrow
FAITH - until it is tested
PEACE - until faced with conflict
TRUST - until we are betrayed
LOVE - until it is lost
HOPE - until conftronted with doubts
Author Unknown


Hahaha watched Pirates of the Carribean today with my friends...so cool!

but wat was great was that my friend could go, by God's grace, really, cos we ended up watching a 9:05 show, instead of the 7:30 show..hahah...cos school holidays, so many people watching!

aiyah...but after the show felt a bit crapped up, dunno y either... (pms? hahahaahahaah)

have been thinking about things on the way back to campus as usual, man...if only can talk to someone abt things, esp those things that I've decided to do abt some stuff...? (ie. a mentor of sorts? and that lah)

and yeah, though I'm late, and I dunno whether she reads this, but happy birthday Meishan! hehe

...i dunwan to fall for the wrong things/people, or even worse, let people on to wrong ideas.....

Tuesday, September 09, 2003

The Recall

Had a very very weird dream last night...

was a rainy evening, was in a car somewhere in orchard, then all of a sudden, every (hand)phone around me started ringing. And yes, it was a recall to our units

Called one of my friends who was in a different unit, and apparently far too many units has been recalled for it to be an exercise

War? War...

The I woke up, thank God man....really not a nice dream at all...but if that really happened, I really wonder whether those people I've met in army would go back and fight (if need be), or jus try to escape or slack off still like last times? And that person whom I really hated too?

Man, can imagine (vaguely) what those people in those warring countries felt like, think the feeling sux... :(

Man oh man oh man

wah....have seen some other people's weblogs, and their's are so nice man!!!

learn learn learn!

Monday, September 08, 2003

Musings of a very bored person

The new website:
...is non-existent yet
...has not been done up yet

cause' I'm now in the middle of (nowhere) trying to learn a bit more about how this amazingly easy yet complicated looking technology can help to make my life easier when making a website

it looks crappy with the chatbox, and barely works fine, but without it it looks...a little empty? hmmm...

so there, I'm gonna give up for the time being tonight and.....
study! yeah! study! =P

Things I have learnt over the past weekend

1) God CAN keep you awake on a Saturday morning lecture (duh~), and that was reinforced lol

2) excerpts from today's message:

Christian Character: 7 steps to overcome the power of mammon (money)
1) ADMIT your feelings (that you have such an issue)
2) CONFESS your struggles
3) FIND a spiritual friend (to help each other)
4) make an inner RENUNCIATION
2 Cor 6:10: "...having nothing, and yet possessing everything" -> All that you have is not your own, but God's
5) culticate THANKSGIVING
6) GIVE liberally (!!! lol~~~)
7) HOLD ON to God's promises -> That He's gonna supply ALL your needs, according to His riched in Glory

you can't serve 2 Gods: either serve God or serve money
matt 6:24, luke 16:13

lol...wat say you?

had a superb sunday again, super tiring man tell you, now it's every group of 2 doing the survey for an entire block of people!!!!! Imagine walking down 17 storeys (i think?) asking pple the same thing over and over again, and all those crap in that stupid weather! hahah...but God's great I tell you, cos my partner's (my DEAR sister) a very nice person!! hahaha...duh...anyways had a great time in spite of the discouraging conditions (HOT weather, less people turning up today, etc)

hmmm....put a note on my door and pray for a car every time I walk out of the door? I may just do that...but if i really do so hope that my roomie doesn't get too worried that he's staying with a desperate-for-a-car person! hahaha!!

Friday, September 05, 2003

The Car

my roomie just received a call....everything in a nutshell: he may actually have a car to drive in the near future?! oh man hahaha i'm sooooo happy for him, yet at the same time i so want it too!!! haahahah

oh man arghz~~!!!

Coding coding all we do is coding what do we do we code

hahaaha...if only my friend can see this: lol though I know that the statement was said in jest (that females can't code, lol), but wah lau...my class rep is scary man i tell you? if the code examples that she thought of were by herself, she is GOOD man i tell you, scary~~~

time to go back to my programming! grrrr.....chiong ah~~~~!!!!

My arms ache

ah..the result of doing only 70 pushups in the day yesterday, after how long nv do liao? hahaha

still sick from the sore throat/flam today, third day liao i think, feeling sux, wake up in the morning feeling no strength and feverish and headache, wah...i want it to stop! haha...anyway it's ok, i KNOW that it'll come to pass? So praise God first anyway hehe

had worship prac today,and even though EVERYONE going there all had hectic/bad weeks one way or another, think we all had a great time practising and worshipping too at the same time (not to mention that i think like all practises, we all usually suck, but then during the real thing during the service,it ALWAYS turns out well, all these 6-7yrs in the music min lol) yeah!


Wednesday, September 03, 2003

The mind that is made up

"Are there any plans that I've set, but have yet to let Him examine the motive behind them? Or even to approve according to His will? If so, may I give them up completely up to Him for Him to scrutinise and change, for His glory"

Another day in school, and just when we're (or at least I am) starting to understand most of what the person is talking during lectures, it's almost the recess week next week (meaning that all my lecturers will change), awww man!

Some of my friends went to my mei's place to study, gosh too bad had lectures till eveing, else would've gone too lol, but then again...oh well

One thing I wish to know...how exactly do we give up our issues/thoughts/feelings up to Him? I don't think it's just as simple as giving it up to Him right? Surely there must be implications of that statement? But what? Is it to be open to whatever He has to do about it? Or anything else even further than that? Teach me!!!

Aiyah...my friend's bag (the birthday present that we gave to her) broke liao, after 2 days of using...great man...will be going down to the shop with her to c if can exchange anot...lol now I wonder whether should we have gotten the proper Crumpler bag for her? At least that type will last for sure lol. Speaking of which, think it's high time I've gotten another one for myself too? My present deuter's a bit torn liao...gosh

Roomie made a comment, should we pray for a car(we're both gian to drive ah haha)? Lol, though to me that was a want for now, not a need, but it struck me, that if our God wants to really bless us, shouldn't we not have any reservations about asking for things too? (think child-like faith, you'll see my point) Then that pointed me to what do I view God as (same question as last time, but has the answer to that changed over the years?)...oh man...

Monday, September 01, 2003

Was doing my "homework" (no lah) for my CG in NTU, came across one thing,

John 5: 28-29
28"Do not be amazed at this, for a time is coming when all who are in their graves will hear his voice 29and come out--those who have done good will rise to live, and those who have done evil will rise to be condemned.

Does that mean that those who have yet to hear His Word somehow before they left will be judged again? Or EVERYONE? Hmm, the second judgement?

It's amazing I tell you, in that passage, the Jews were extremely angry with Jesus and wanted to kill Him and all that, all because He told the truth and His doings were focused on something a LOT different from what they were doing at that time, but still, He never budged from the truth, even though it has serious implications on Him (his life) in the future, I guess that it's the fact that He had a very powerful backing, God himself... But how many times have we all been swayed by public opinion and not told the truth as we know it?

The spirit of courage...and a REAL awareness of the Father that He's always with you, is what I really wish I will be able to get...I want it!!!
Have been thinking over the things today, after last night's outbursts (would you call those outbursts? dunno...)

I think truly in my heart I've yet to really learn to trust Him in all things? How ironic, one of the songs we sing came to mind: There is no problem too big, God cannot solve it. And here I am ranting about having tried this and that already and it all doesn't work?

Thank God though, better late than never I suppose... =) time to start trusting...again
anyway, went to my friend's 21st birthday celebration last sat, realised one thing, we are getting old lor...?

anyways hope that she liked the present from the group of us, though it was really quite a bad choice of present in more ways than one? duh...

time to go do my tutorials...! (finally)
seeing the lives of people shaped by His grace is really amazing, makes you really want to be shaped in the same (loving) way that they are? not to become like them, but to be moulded by Him too likewise?

then again, EVERYONE's lives' are being transformed by Him, it's only how resistant you are to it? knowingly or unknowingly...

great, i think that was a slap in my own face, time to wake up my ideas