Phone archive

Archived most of my camera phone pictures, can go take a look if you're interested heh heh ;)

You can find them here.

Btw, happy new year in advance to all.

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I don't understand many things, not even myself, really.

And the only reaction I can have toward that is still ignorance.

Sad....

Just a reminder of how wide's the scope of the fall, and also how futile man's efforts are to avoid this. But in the end, ALL will have to face the music in the time of the second coming of Christ.

If you'd like to help out the relief efforts, there're plenty of ways you can help out, just read around, can either donate stuffs or even just money to help out.

The end of the beginning

The PRC Student Union camp just ended today, with not too much fanfare and stuff, only the ending concert where the groups presented their items to the whole camp, and also the cheering competition (which became too rowdy at times, was a bit scared that they'd actually start to get physical), with talks given by the SU pres. and the SU PRC pres. respectively.

After that, going for a short supper with some committee members, had some fun getting rid of some food that we didn't want to eat initially ;)

In the duration of this camp, I spoke far more mandarin than I had for the past months or so I think, with the usual fare of blank looks whilst trying (really hard!) to understand what each other it trying to say.

(Continued post, after crashing for 13hrs straight)

I must say that those who helped out were pretty brave, even though massively outnumbered, and the problem of language still exists to a certain extent for different people.

Didn't get to interact with all the people in the group (20 of them, with 4 AGLs and the GL), but at least managed to talk to some of them, and to establish a few friendships.

Well, to those in the partnership, thanks for your effort; although the camp's over, in more ways than one, we've only just begun ;) press on, continue to build up the friendship with them~

PRC SU Camp Day 1

First day of PRC Student Union Camp...

Tired...a lot of things that can be improved, like some of my habits when it comes to such things.

Anyway, it was a good time of talking to some of the group members, even with the language barrier (the different slangs), a pity that I couldn't talk to any of them properly, yet.

It's been a tiring day, and a trying day, for many of the GLs (for many reasons), but don't be discouraged my dear brothers and sisters, remember what we're there for ;)

Riddle

A lame riddle I thought of while being crazy:

Q: Why were there only 25 alphabets left during Christmas time?


A: Because there's 'noel'.

The significance of Christmas

(Note: this post may offend people, although that's not my intention, you've been warned)

Over these few days of the weekend, I've come to realise (further) how important Christ's arrival on earth is.

I nearly cried (yes, serious) during dinner today, seeing the state of each and every one in my family...not only my mum, but also my brother and myself, how through the actions, and the attitudes that show from it all.

The sinful family, one that does a circus performance once every now and then, showing visitors that everything's nice and dandy and stuff, not that I advocate airing all our dirty linen to everyone that comes along our way, but with people that are going to be part of the family (in a human sense)? It becomes really saddening, really.

Not that I like to be like this, disrespectful, disobedient, avoiding home so as not to be annoyed sometimes, how long does this list go? Not that I enjoy doing these, but it still is a damn big struggle.

There's really no way ANYBODY could have come to realise about the only way to become right with God, the way we see society continually going down the dumps (even morally) in an ever going downward spiral.

(Coming back to hall, read the news about the earthquakes and for the first time (I think), tsunamis in the south-east asian region? If you haven't realised, we're continually losing control of our planet as the years go by, even though we're certainly trying our best to preserve it.)

Seeing all these happen, I can only thank God that He's willing to forgive us, on account of what this Man has done, because, there's absolutely nothing I can ever do in this lifetime, nor the next few hundred (even IF there ever were such a thing as reincarnation).

The allure of acceptance

It seems that no matter what I do, in whichever context or group of people, there's always the factor of acceptance involved.

Not referring to accepting others, being others' centered in thinking, but that the more comfortable I am with any particular group of people, the more I'm tempted to throw my principles and focus out of the window; focus on what is the important thing, showing people the truth about the world in love, and the truth about Jesus Christ, not any other god or form of religiousity, but The God incarnate, come to earth to set us free from our sins, in full obedience of the Father's will; principles, in standing up for what I believe to be the right thing to do, and not to be ashamed of what I believe in.

In ALL my circles of relations (if you'd call it as that), I see it happening... my DDP (the recent project I had to do during the holidays which just ended this morning) group...my church friends...and more recently, even the group I've been doing campus ministry with for the past 1 1/2 years.

So much for following the herd instinct...as far as I can remember over the years I've been terribly ingrained in it, from my decision to move with my church friends to target our efforts at the Punggol area, to it being one of the reasons for my active participation in the CF here, being the exco, and even up till now, it affecting my decisions on what to do as an exco member in the light of the current situation. The pattern throughout all these is the same: as long as I'm accepted within the group somehow, I'll do whatever it takes to make sure that I continue to be accepted.

The only difference now, is whether I realise it, and am aware of it, and hopefully continue to battle it, as compared to the past when I was totally unaware of it.

Why battle it, you'd say? Because it is self-centered, doing what I want, even if it contradicts how we should respond to God, or others; the essence of sin itself.

Back to the thinking board.............

Crap

This is horrid...how things change like mad...

Have a hell lot of thinking through to do, and that takes time, which I may not have anymore.

I probably am not fully clear on this, but we'd better make up our minds soon, else things are only going to become more unstable...or was it an delusion that things were ever going to become stable?

Would staying to give them all time to think be a better choice really? Or the kick in the ass would be the thing they need?

Looks like there's a lot more I need to understand before I can truly say that my stand is truly clear, but...will that ever happen...on time?

More meetings

Tomorrow there'll be another exco meeting...

I really wonder what it'll be like, since I've never experienced such things happening before as an exco member (also my first time in an exco)

Not that I'm looking forward to it, but if some things have to be done, it has to be done, since I've already decided on what I'd do.

A lot of things running through in my mind especially recently, after the carolling on Sunday (and Saturday) evening, but no time to write them down yet, nor the mood...

Looks like things are coming out to light soon, but just have to see how things turn out....meanwhile more thinking through to be done....

Busy Weekend

Finally managed to register for my subjects, even with the server literally going down within 2 minutes of the next time slot opening. Got most of the subjects that I wanted to, with the exception for one, but it's ok. Will be starting on my business minor, even though it's quite late into my course...

Am going home over the weekend, with a massively busy weekend awaiting:
- practise tonight
- carolling at two locations tomorrow: Chesire Home in the afternoon and Novena Square in the evening
- carolling this sunday evening, at Punggol

And goodness knows what else that I've forgotten...

Meanwhile, just to leave you with the pics I took for the inter-hall games, if you're interested to take a look at my horrid photo-taking =D

Sickened

Got back my results yesterday, and I passed most of my core modules, except for one...

The most irritating module (to me) to have to retake: Engineers and Society
(if some of you remember, I was quite disturbed after reading through that textbook)

Oh well, at least I got pretty decent grades for the cores, which I was prepared to fail for some already, so not too much time wasted in that sense.

Tomorrow's the time to register for subjects, and I've yet to decide on whether to start to take up the business minor or not.

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Just thinking about the issue at hand, already makes me feel sick, although it's a reality that it has been happening throughout the times, and it's happening, and it WILL happen in various forms in the future (the bible has talked about it), but still, it's sickening to see lies (subtle or not) being propagated around, and worse, people actually falling for it, and the inevitable fact that more will fall for it, even ourselves, if we're not vigilant.

Accepting this fact is not easy (probably because I tend to think of people as nice and good, unless proved otherwise), but we have to learn and move on from here, because there is a WAR out there compared to this battle we fight, brothers and sisters in Christ.

La la la

Presented our carols that we'll be singing to the campers this evening after the talk, and it was horrendrous =S Think we need a lot more practise together...

Lucky it's just "our own people", whom we are familiar with, can't imagine the aftermath of singing like that in public, heh heh.

Missions in China, anyone?

Joined them at the camp again after DDP, waited for A first in a way, ended up reaching there just in time (again) for the talk and workshop to start.

Talk's on the aim for missions (Rev 7:9-14), and the agenda(the why) for missions. Not just overseas, cross cultural, not only when we're specially "called", or when we feel the prompting, but every christian, for that's how God intended it to be passed on, and how He intended people to be saved, by His people prophesying (telling God's revealed Word to others) His fully revealed word in Christ.

Did some profiling and strategising of the PRCs that are coming into NTU, since there're vast implications and advantages of evangelising to them, now that they're literally at our doorstep...many suggestions and considerations heard, which is and will be a great help in planning for the PRC students' good.

Did some talking to the whole group, to encourage them to consider these things carefully, and also to be a GL for the upcoming PRC camp organised by the student union, since it's one of the best chances of building friendships with them. Though I think I (still) suck at public speaking, which made me forget a lot of things that I wanted to say lol, I do hope and pray, that at least this group of campers will come to realise, or remember, one of the implications of the gospel for people: no gospel, no faith = no salvation.

Simple as that, may seem unfair at first, but in the end, God is justified when He judges.

Reminded

Got lost on my way to NUS this evening (today's the first day of the annual camp), to join the rest for the later part of the evening, and I nearly ended up on the other half of the island, thanks to my stupidly expecting to see a bus stop that never appeared, I got off and changed direction just one stop short of going all the way to the other side of the island (from NUS, all the way to Bedok area).

It's at the opposite bus stop, waiting for the bus to take back to my original intended destination, that I remembered how much I HATED losing my way (so to speak) in the late evenings: tired, "lost", late, and unable to see properly due to the headlights of the incoming traffic.

It's only when I reached there, that I remembered/realised why I always willingly "subject myself to all this", though I certainly could've not gone in the first place, counting that there're still a lot of things to be done, and that I'm still tired: to learn, and to fellowship with the rest, encouraging each other. Though I'd dare say that initially I didn't have these intentions in mind when I came into uni as a freshie.

Upon reaching, the talk had just barely started, which was good (can hear the whole talk). The talk was on Jonah 1, by Edmund Fong (first time seeing and hearing him), which was interesting too, to see how Jonah can be understood in the light of the entire gospel. But of course, it's not just the hearing, but what implications it has for us too....as realised during the last part of the talk, and during the discussions.

Had a second dinner during their supper time (my first was during my LONG bus ride), talking to them, and just mainly crapping actually, heh heh.

Well, am looking forward to joining for the evening tomorrow, though I know that I'd certainly not get enough rest. (as if I've been getting enough rest these few weeks anyway =D )

Hall Olympiads

Finally gotten myself down to doing up some pictures, but they're related to work (sort of). Am one of the photographers for my hall's publications sub-comm, so will be taking pictures these few days, at least related to such things.

You can view the pics here, or using the link to my current gallery to the right ;)

(PS: Comments pls! On the pics lah)

The fight

I've found the thing that is more tiring mentally as compared to exams itself: 3 1/2 hour meetings.

Had our clarification meeting with him (and one more person, whom I don't think what he as there for was really helpful or not), along with most of the exco.

Having to constantly be on the alert to figure out 1) what the person was saying, 2) what the person was trying to say, and 3) what the person was really saying, was absolutely draining, really was quite tired out for the rest of the day.

My conclusion at the end of that meeting: He's either trying to be funny, or is confused, or both...which made me even more convinced of my decision: being in partnership with them at this point of time in such a setting definitely is not too wise, to burn yourself out in trying to hold on to the true gospel whilst learning (which is another problem too).

Now the thing to think about: what next?

Thank God that we're not the only ones in such a struggle, against "truth decay", amongst other things, after hearing about the battles that other faithful people of God are undergoing in these times too.

Be it to stay on, or to leave, either way it's not going to be easy. But of course, I thank God for having saved us with His Word, for the honour of having the gospel being entrusted to us, to pass on.

(Still) tired...even though the meeting was yesterday morning =S

"Big day"

Tomorrow's the "big day", in some ways for us who'll be going for the meeting(where we'll be declaring our intentions, and giving them a chance to explain, hopefully), and also for my friend who's getting married tomorrow.

I DO hope that the people at the meeting will be clear on what we're trying to do, or at least why we do what we've decided upon..

It sickens me still to imagine the probability of what could be happening in the minds of those people. But be it deliberate or just that they're confused, they still need to come to repentance by the gospel...only thing's when, or whether it'll really happen or not in the future.

Yet another vague post I know, but more will be revealed here in time to come, perhaps.

It's sad to have this happen, but we HAVE been told about this, from the Scriptures.

Busy

That's the catch word of these days.

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Sin is absolutely disgusting, seen in both myself, and the things around that happen. Really can't stand it....

Old

Met up with an old friend yesterday (not that the old friend is old, but nevertheless, could have been heh heh), catching up over dinner and stuff.

It's funny to see how many things have changed over the years, yet not that all changes are things to be glad about in particular...

And I'm still not too sure whether some of the things I do, are really the wisest thing to do, especially when other things cloud the mind...and when you jolly well know that you're NOT doing the things you should be.

Hai~~~ The mind is lazy, AND the flesh is weak.

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Think a lot of my recent posts have no meaning whatsoever, especially if you don't know what I'm referring to in particular, so...hmm...I'll see what I can do about it ;P

Tired body, tired hands

Had an interesting, but crazy morning today, what with preparing and serving drinks to the marathon runners today.

Didn't really look too bad, until the first (and seemingly only) wave of runners came at around 6 plus, all the way till 9 plus.

Opened bottles and poured drinks till all our hands were sore (and for some, blistered), because of the 14000 odd runners coming in one shot through this drink station, a lot thirsty and in a hurry to get to somewhere else ;)

Not enough sleep...think will need to crash a lot earlier today, even with a few short naps in between during the day. Think my room-mate's damn power, he's still doing his lab work at this time, and hasn't even gotten any rest yet since our commitment ended. But wonder whether he'll crash tomorrow or not heh heh...

Met a lot of people during (and after) the event, a friend from my previous school, Fonz, William and Veron, and Stanley (Ian's brother in law, who hasn't joined us for frisbee in a long time already).

Think its interesting to meet people this way, though if there were to be another of this event, I'd probably want to try out helping at another area (not drinks station again), or run myself ;)

Typing with a cut on one of the main typing fingers is no mean feat, I hope it heals fast, counting that I have a project to do still... =

The aftermath: Rubbish, all generated in 3 hrs 

The aftermath: VERY tired people 

The aftermath: Badly littered streets (note the "white coloured" pavement....) 

Some were there for fun, literally 

Waiting for the first wave of runners to come 

All set and ready to go! 

The empty road near the Esplanade flag off point, ar 4.30am 

Photography

Have decided that will not take too much photos anymore (if at all) for various reasons, and it'll remain strictly as a hobby (and "work"), for now.

Not much point in taking for memory's sake...anyway.

But that doesn't mean that impromptu pictures of "interesting" stuff won't come up from my phone camera in the near future! Heh heh heh...maybe can try it out tomorrow at the marathon too.

Yong Chieh's antics: There's no end to what he can do, with whatever's at hand...as long as he's trying to be funny of course ;) 

Nothing much to blog about these days

The module we have in school this hols, combined with COUNTLESS other things to be done, are absolutely crazy...

Barely have time to meet up with the people I'd want to...

End up usually with little or no strength to read/blog...

No much strength/time available to think...

It's a constant struggle to think through things, and to be clear about them, mainly because 1) I seemingly don't have the time/energy, 2) I have no idea where to start.

But if being clear about things mean being able not to act impulsively(2 Ti 2:22), especially when it comes to important things, then I'd rather continue this struggle; What else to expect of a person who has somehow been naive most of the time, up till this point of his life?

Then again, how clear is "clear"?

So many things that are vague to my understanding, be it whether I'm aware of it or not(yet I hope).

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Frankly speaking, don't know whether I'll be able to hold up under this load for this month, if only I could think up of someone who'd be able to help out (in a sense) for this time....but then again, everyone's gettting more and more busy....

The thing I'll be doing from the wee hours of this sunday morning: Handing out drinks to runners. 

More sermons

Just finished listening to another sermon, on 2 Timothy 2:1-13, regarding the perserverance of God's family, from here. (I know I'm very far behind supposedly lol)

Certainly a very good lesson learnt, and a good reminder, encouragement, when things now seem to look really bad..and the stress' piling up..

First try at puppeting

Went for my first practise at puppetry in my church, learning some skills related to that in preparation for the christmas programme we have in mind.

Quite fun to learn, and to try out too, but I think this wou;dn't be one of the things I'd be doing, seeing how "damp" the inside of the puppet became after I practised with it for a while. (oops....)

Finding out more abt myself

Just some after lunch activity, got this link from Chin Cher's blog, and just tried out the test myself.

Cheeeeeem (complicated)...but in some ways it's quite accurate.

Think the link for my test results got screwed up along the way, else could've shared them.

Blah. Back to DDP!

{DDP, carolling, carolling, and other stuff} madness

Am quite busy and tired of late, from the DDP, all these distractions, and things that are running concurrently.

If it were just the DDP (design and development project) itself, it'd be manageable, but didn't really anticipate that these things coming in together would be so draining.

Haha...am not too much of an anticipator (at the moment?) anyway, so looks like this one is another thing learnt the hard way =D

Ok, back to reading

Good Stuff

More good stuff can be found in the here (sorry, accesible to those within NTU network only for now).

The vids and audio from the Klang Valley Bible Conference 2004, converted by Chin Cher.

(The link's the same as the Sermons link in the right sidebar, under "Resouces")

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*Pic removed*

Different people react differently to cameras, and they make different types of subjects. Heh heh heh =D And of course, some are more fun to take impromptu. Don't ask me why I was running around hall with a camera late at night, rest assured that there were no untoward intentions =P

(PS: pls, this pic is not meant to be an advert.... -_-:: , neither is it to tempt people... )

Bombed

Don't know why, but was especially tired after coming back in the evening yesterday.

Literally bombed out on the bed, till my roommate came back from hall bash, before I washed up and went to sleep.

More reading up on my DDP to come..

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I'm not too sure how tomorrow will turn out, but my heart certainly aches at the thought of the (seemingly) impending unfortunate division in thought.

But God is in control: if it's time, it'll certainly come to pass. If the time isn't to be, no matter what, it'll never come. Nevertheless, we'll all find out on That Day itself, and till then when the Kingdom has fully arrived, the things we're called to do is still the same.

I wanna go home (no,not the one in Lorong Ah Soo).

Antisocialism?

After many many years, as far back as I can remember since primary school, up till now, I've realised for quite some time that I don't really know anybody, and the reverse, I think it's true too.

Not that there's nobody that I trust, or that I don't regard anybody as having a relation with; but that I don't really know anybody, who they really are, etc.

Of course there're people that I'm close to, but that changes everytime (not that that was one of the points, on whether that is supposed to happen or not), and that I know their mannerisms, preferences, etc. But, after all these, I still come back to the same point.

Not that this is a why-can't-I-have-friends-like-other-people-do time of thinking, but even within God's family, how are we to relate to fellow brothers and sisters in Christ, and even with people who haven't come to the faith (yet)?

What is it then?

It may be just overly high expectations or what, but, I'm not going to settle for just anything, till...I hear the truth.

A "member" of my family 

Busy

Although the coming five weeks will not be easy-going in terms of time-commitments, but I'm certainly glad for having gone for dinner and watching the talks by D.A. Carson, from Rev 12 and 13 (still got one more, on Rev 14), have heard a lot today, but will need (a lot) more processing first...

Certainly am glad, for Christ's work on the cross, short of which we all would've nothing to do with one another, coming together in such a way.

On a lighter note, think I got reminded of the first time I "read" the bible, when referred to regarding the origins of my (ex-)school crest, the interpretation of which was certainly off.

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Spoilt

My things seem to spoil all at the same time, well, at least this time it did.

1) my old handphone (really going to give up on me already, before I changed it)
2) my mp3 player
3) my earphones which I got for my dunno-which birthday

One's changed, now for the other two...no $$$ though...oh well, probably won't be able to listen to sermons (and laugh by myself, looking cranky on a bus or train) whilst taking public transport for the time being, can't tolerate listening on one side of my earphones already.

Back to school

Have been home over the weekend, and now, it's back to campus with different things upcoming, with some things finally come upfront, in having to face it and decide upon as a whole.

Fitness has been declining from the lack of maintenance (had to put in my all like no one's business during frisbee today), think the road relay trainings will help.

Ah.....

It's over!

Finally...Last paper this morning was a bit hard to finish, but at least, it's all over, for this semester =P

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Predict

The most surprising things do happen, things that you never expect to happen, but they sometimes do.

Finale

Tomorrow's the final day of exams for this semester.

Last burst of fire~ Chiong arghhhhhhh

KWTX | Ten-Year-Old Grilled Cheese Sandwich Is Back On E-Bay

KWTX | Ten-Year-Old Grilled Cheese Sandwich Is Back On E-Bay

eBay item 5535890757 (Ends Nov-22-04 17:22:07 PST) - Virgin Mary In Grilled Cheese NOT A HOAX ! LOOK & SEE !

-_-::
Need money, anyone? May come in handy if the casino gets built in Singapore.

(I think she should sell the toaster instead, might as well.
"Come bid for the toaster that made the Virgin Mary sandwich!")

Sin

Sigh...

We know not when the end is, though we long to see that day come.

Hmm...?

An excerpt from "God's Big Picture", by Vaughan Roberts (which I'm reading at the moment):

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Figure 26: The Psalms: 'The Lord is King' (Psa 10:16)
The book of Psalms is a collection of hymns and prayers used by the people of Israel in their worship. It does not belong to any one period in Israel's history, the individual psalms having being written over a long period of time, many of them King David. The bok has been described as 'the little Bible', as all the Bible's themes are found within it. Let us notice three themes.

Praise
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Prophecy
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Personal Experience
In the Psalms we find not just God speaking to his people, but his people speaking to him. We are given an insight into the believer's heart. The experience of faith in God the King is laid bare before us in all it's variety. The mood veries from great certainty and joy to doubt and depression. The Christian believer can expect to experience similar feelings: the King has not changed. The words of the psalmist can become our own:

"How long, O Lord? Will you forget me for ever?
How long will you hide your face from me?" (13:1)

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Not too sure what to make of this...anybody?

What on earth is wrong with everyone?!

Why do people die?
Why do people fall sick?
Why are my parents so IrRiTaTiNg?
Why does crime exist?
Why does WARS exist?
Why do relationships break down?
Why...?

Ever thought about such things? Want to find out more? More about the TRUTH?

There'll be a talk at SMU, at the auditorium, on the 2nd December 2004, organised by SMUCF. The speaker will be Canon John Chapman (from Sydney), and the title of the talk "What's wrong with the world?". Registration starts at 7pm on that day, and will probably end at around 9pm plus.

Entry by tickets only, since there's limited space, so if you're interested to find out more, or to see what's wrong exactly with this world, do drop me an email (gunblad3 {@} gmail [d0t] com) asap, so that I can help you reserve tix.

For those wanting to know about whether we can don't take the exams that bug us all so much, sorry, but that probably won't be answered during then ;)

Stay in

Yet another weekend to be spent in campus, supposedly to be made full use of the time here...

Slaughter

I'm ready: to be slaughtered by this paper.

If for some reason I pass, I can tell you it's not going to be any credit on my part at all.

Blogthings - You Are a Social Blogger!

You Are a Social Blogger!

Your blog is more of a semi-private affair for your friends. It's how you keep in touch... sharing stories, jokes, and pics.

What kind of blogger are you?

Okok, don't blast me already, just killing a bit of time after lunch =P

Dumb man eats bitter gourd: mouth is bitter but can't talk about it.

There's things I'd wish I can share with someone (not meaning anyone in particular here), but 1) I don't know what it is I'm thinking about exactly, and 2) I'm not too sure of it somehow.

I hope it's not another pathetic attempt at attention seeking, somehow. Would be terrible to fall back to those days once again...

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More more more!

More exams upcoming, but that's not what I want more of ;P

Went for the PT talks which I signed up for some time ago, met a LOT of people whom I've not seen for very long liao there, heh.

Talks were on Ezra, pretty interesting how the OT passages (I've heard) are preached so far, in the light of the whole bible, tomorrow it'll be on Nehemiah, am looking forward to it.

Some things learnt from the talks and what I've read tonight, but more thinking through to be done about them.

People, it seems, are a lot more interesting than I thought, but alas, I'm REALLY slow when it comes to figuring out what's really happening in most cases...blah

"Fun" Day

Tomorrow's the fun paper (SC203), following which I'll probably suffer and get killed for 203 and 204 =S

But I'm not too worried, somehow, heh. (don't know which one's the thing to be worried about, if at all: the papers, or the fact that I'm not too worried)

有心

The few dear people who continue to contact me, even though I've not seen them for so long, and not talked to at all other than the little bit online: What's their motivation? And purpose? Is it what they've been learning? If so, what?

Am curious to find out, not because they're the few who actually do continue to contact me, even online, but I'd want to see what are the real reasons for such actions.

First post!

TPDL Thoughts (link's on the right sidebar too)

Nah, not really, just blogged a bit about what I read today.

More studying to come the next few days...

And thank God for the technology we have now, else I'd have to continue eating my meals in pain ;)

A day in the life of a boring person

With nothing seemingly taking up my time other than to try and study for the impending 4 exam papers...

Ending up not doing the things I intended to do a little bit here and there...

With stupid thoughts coming in at the wrong times...

With nothing to be proud about (other than my salvation, which I never earned in any way), nothing to look forward to (other than to go home)...

When will all these end?

Time to go to the dentist.

One down...

First paper down today, so much for crapping for 2 1/2 hrs...hope I don't fail though heh, won't want to retake THIS module again (that horrid "national education" stuff).

How many people does it take to change a light bulb?

Lightbulb joke - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

For those who have time to burn on their hands, for whichever reason.

Remembering, at the wrong time

The more I try to concentrate on revising, the more distracted I get, not by the things that are around, but memories, and people.

The exams have finally arrived! Can't wait to get this over and done with, though there remains some things left to revise for too.

Just wondering how the SWs are faring, now that we've suddenly gotten ourselves buried in work and stuff...

Birds: They fly, they hop, and they climb walls?? 

3 guys at the supermarket

Went to get stuff from NTUC today evening with Ferg and Daniel, and as usual, I wasn't spared from being suan'ed, as with my study group today too.

Looks like I'm being suaned pretty frequently these days...probably it's the exam stress heh heh...

And yes, I've nothing better to blog about, for tonight at least =P

"This book, very good!"

Finally got my copy of the Purpose Driven Life, and the four-volume video study guide (video...?), that we'll be doing in our CGs in HOPE. For free! Good in some ways, for poor people like me ;)

Read the back cover of the book at the MRT station there, whilst waiting for the train to go back to campus, and the guy beside me commented "This book, very good!" whilst boarding the train.

Heh heh, I'd like to know too, whether it really is or not, for myself too (on biblical terms of course; if it were my standards, I'd probably settle for bible studies per se mainly, cos' there's still so much to learn). In any case, it'll be what the CGs will be going through, so even if I didn't want to, there's no choice either lol.

Think I'll be doing a side journal, or commentary, or review of sorts on it as I read, would help me to be clear on what I'm thinking too, or why I'm thinking these thoughts as I read on.

"[11:46:26 PM] ACH: hi dot dot dot"

I love (talking to) this sister-in-Christ! Hehe.. =D

After talking online for almost 2 hrs, managed to clear up some misunderstandings (generated by my stupid actions some time back), so am glad.

(Nothing much to this post, other than what I want to say here. So no point reading too much into this, cos there's nothing beyond what this post says =P )

FOR WHAT??

Was finishing reading the text for one of my modules today, Engineers and Society (our "national education" module), and the more I read it, the more angry, and sad I got.

What is the point of studying so hard??? To join the rat race that beckons outside? (DEAD rats' race mind you, all DEAD rats, running toward only one goal: DEATH) No, to waste resources (money and time) to get a piece of paper (and a fanciful title) so that we can "enter society" as "professional engineers", and "contribute to the building of our nation"?

All rubbish! Living in such a pragmatic society (kiasu'ism, greed, etc.), only serves to show how self-centered a world we live in: we only do things when there're things in it for us, when there're things to be gained, when we satisfy and protect OUR own needs. And what with rethinking of our idealogies for our nation, is just futile: sin only results in MORE SIN, which leads to DEATH in the end.

Not to say that I myself am any better off: even in my thinkings, those that I've not been careful enough in thinking through, the need for self-glorification, and acceptance comes in.

Crap

NB: These are my thoughts on this, but not all of them, so don't jump to conclusions

GO! GO! GO!

Project Timothy Singapore: God's Hand Was Upon Me

For those who're able to go: GO GO GO!

Quite rare to find a faithful preaching from the OT (counting what it's for), hence it'll be interesting to see how it's done this time, from Ezra and Nehemiah.

From what I heard, PT Singapore has a record of getting "good" people to come and talk, meaning those who're faithful to the word in preaching.

I'll be going, if I can, even though it's smack in the middle of my exams (=S) since I've not really heard what it's like (for a sermon on OT) yet.

...

Nothing much to blog about today, other than my slow (but sure) healing of my jaw heh heh, thank God!

Anyways have some things to think through clearly, thanks to my newfound "Aunt Agony" (lol), whom has 1) helped in starting me off where to think from, and 2) continued to "pressure" me regarding this time to time, heh.

Not too sure when I'll be able to get this clear, but I hope to soon, rather than it be later, by God's grace (by which I probably wouldn't have even started to be aware of this, counting how idiotic I am).

Time to (try to) sleep early, need to rest.

Ouch D-2

Jaw still hurts like mad in the evening, and the rain's not helping: Not sure whether I'm getting a fever or not from all this, feeling VERY cold..

On another note, it's been a long time since I've been able to share some of my "troubles" in my life, and also get some sound advice (from the bible), which was what I was looking for. Thanks brothers!

Though there's a lot of thinking through to be done, but I doubt that I'll be able to think any further tonight: Have a headache already also, gonna sleep early tonight.

Ouch

Just extracted the offending (problematic) wisdom tooth today, ended up with a hurting jaw the rest of the day, thank God for painkillers man....

In addition to that, my waller hurts too, bank account really empty for now...

I need to sleep early...provided the pain doesn't keep me awake, or the (scary) memories of .... haunt me in my sleep...
=S
=S
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Hehehe... =D

Confused

Read the above, 'nuff said.

Suffering -> Endurance -> Character (-> Hope)

It's 5.20am, and have just reached back hall from the "extended" time of studying-turned-sharing or talking, etc.

Ended up not studying at all today, cos of various reasons. But I'm glad, because it's been a long time since I've had the chance to listen to people talk about themselves really, and to know them a little more.

Have gotten to see for myself how real these things are: that suffering leads to endurance, and endurance leading to character. Now that we have hope in our future glory in Christ, how much more are we able to endure, because of what Christ has done!

I think it's quite amazing how God's sovereignty holds true still all throughout time, but sometimes it's when we look back, then we see, or understand.

Heh heh..am still blur about a lot of things, but that's probably just that I'm unobservant ;) Oh well..

I think it's time to sleep.

Pics are up~

Have uploaded the pics taken last night at Grace's 21st Bday, can be viewed here! =)

I know I've a whole lot of backlog to clear, can only clear slowly till holidays come, then can clear all faster, but till then, looks like you'll have to make do with this one for now ;)

Thanks to those who've been (eagerly?) waiting for me to post up pics, and for your paitience too heh heh =P

Ok, time to study!

Like? Love?

When the feelings subside (since we can't "feel loving" toward pple ALL the time), what would be the thing that decides whether a person is someone you can work with the rest of your life (I'm talking about your life partner here)?

Have heard that it's beyond feelings, that you care for a person no matter what you feel at the moment (loving, happy, sad, angry, etc), but that's very vague! There're also people we care for even when we're angry at them what, and that doesn't mean anything "special" in that sense what.

From what I've learnt (prob. very vague by now), it's also whether both parties know what are the (intended) roles in creation, and be able to live their lives (or at least strive toward that) in view of what. But I don't understand, does that mean that our choice should be one who understands, and is also able to be a helper, complementing our work in whichever way?

I know that if I rely on only my feelings alone, I'm going to be even more confused (for choice, at times), and moreover, my body of sin is good for nothing good by itself.

I really want to think through this seriously, cos this, in a very foreseeable way, affects the rest of our lives in many ways too.

But of course, there's more pressing things to be clear about now, in the light of what's happening/unfolding.

Why Do I Blog

For the sake of those who read this blog, whether known to me or not,

If you intend to read this blog, perhaps it'll be helpful if I share with you for a moment why do I blog, perhaps it'll allow you to understand a little more of my rationale behind most of my posts, if not all.

This blog is intended to:
- Encourage (Encourage
ENCOUR'AGE, v.t. enkur'rage. To give courage to; to give or increase confidence of success; to inspire with courage, spirit, or strength of mind; to embolden; to animate; to incite; to inspirit.) the reader in the faith in accordance with His Word which was given, to the best of my knowledge as I study and contend with His Word.
- Help consolidate my thoughts (occasionally).
- Share what I decide to share/write in here, boliao or not. =P

This blog is not intended to:
- Be targeted at anyone in a slanderous way, though if the time comes for something to be corrected biblically (in love), and IF this blog somehow is an appropiate channel, it certainly is not meant to be slander.
- Be authoritative, as it is PART of my thoughts (not all), and my viewpoints on a matter.
- Present an objective view of any event(s) that has happened. For that, either read around to find out more, or go to News sites, they probably (they should!) be able to present the facts better than I can. ;)

Some implications:
- Not all posts written here are related to one another, though many are.
- If I put up something to share here that didn't originate from me, it does NOT necessarily mean that my thinking/stand is exactly the same, unless I indicate so too.

Hope this give you a better understanding of where I come from when I blog about certain things, as I don't intend for any more misunderstandings to arise with any reader here in the future, and if any doubts, or any clarifications to be made, or any clear-headed discussion to be made, my contact details are on the right sidebar.

Thanks for reading, and hope you aren't too bored already by this "disclaimer" heh heh. =)

RaNdOm ThOuGhTs: Suanings

Sometimes it's just tempting to try and get attached just for the sake of it, especially when the suanings become a little too much to bear ;)

But of course I'm NOT going to do that lah!

Anyways, it helps to provide some relief at times (at my expense), so no harm done here.

My goodness.... 8-O

USATODAY.com - Gay Episcopal bishop says 'Holy Spirit led us'

This is crazy...how the bible can be misread, misinterpreted, and distorted; an excerpt from the news article:

Robinson also said Wednesday that the "big news" in the report is that it "opens the door to worldwide discussion" about the roles of gays and lesbians in the church.

Robinson, 57, a divorced father who lives with his male partner, pointed out that the moratorium on ordaining gays is not a permanent ban. "Moratoria get lifted," he said.

He said he finds it "astoundingly important" that there was no call to repentance and that the report stresses the great value of remaining in communion — willing to meet and pray together."

"Unity is not in unanimity over a particular issue, but in Jesus Christ," he said. "The communion is about relationships, not about laws. The report is very Gospel-like in this way. Jesus was always breaking laws and finding ways to love someone and to do the right thing."

...

I'm not too sure about what's happening on the other side, or what's on their minds.

But if it's what (some of us) we think it is, it's sad to see such a shameful side of people.

Human nature or not, it's disgusting.

A Purpose Driven Life?

The following review written by WYJ (thanks!) , on the PDL:


What is the purpose driven life? In his popular book "The Purpose Driven Life: What on Earth Am I Here For?" Rick Warren claims simply to have taken the Westminster Shorter Catechism's first question and answer, and extended it into a devotional book. There are positive aspects to his book, such as his emphasis on the need to glorify God in all that we do. Yet there are considerable problems with it. First, the book focuses on the reader. Notice its thesis statement: By the end of this journey you will know God's purpose for your life and will understand the big picture how all the pieces of your life fit together. Having this perspective will reduce your stress, simplify your decisions, increase your satisfaction, and most important, prepare you for eternity. (p.9) This statement appeals to the individual, who reaps the benefits. It is difficult to square this path with that of the cross (Matt. 16:24). The same approach surfaces in Warren's instructions for personal evangelism. He centers evangelism, not upon the life, death, and resurrection of Christ, but upon the personal experience of the believer. Paul wanted to know nothing but "Christ and him crucified" (1 Cor. 2:2), and wanted to preach only "Christ crucified" (1 Cor. 1:23). Moreover, Paul saw the inextricable bond between the gospel and preaching: "But how are they to call on him in whom they have not believed? And how are they to believe in him of whom they have never heard? And how are they to hear without someone preaching?" (Rom. 10:14). Paul instructed Timothy to be prepared to preach both in and out of season (2 Tim. 4:2). Why? Because he knew that Christ manifests himself through the preaching of the Word (Titus 1:3). Warren, by contrast, tells his readers that their "personal testimony is more effective than a sermon, because unbelievers see pastors as professional salesmen, but see you as a 'satisfied customer,' so they give you more credibility" (p.290). To support his claim that personal testimony is more powerful than a sermon, he argues that many who won't accept the authority of the Bible will listen to a humble, personal story." While sharing personal testimony is certainly not inappropriate, Warren makes it foundational. Can the gospel be effectively communicated through a model of consumer satisfaction? While Christ is at the center of Warren's evangelism, so too is the believer, not as an unworthy recipient of God's saving grace, but as a satisfied customer. Regarding worship, Warren writes that "every activity can be transformed into an act of worship when you do it for the praise, glory, and pleasure of God." He argues that "work becomes worship when you dedicate it to God and perform it with an awareness of his presence (p.67). While we should certainly do everything to the glory of God, this does not mean that every activity is an act of worship. If work is worship, what is the point of the Sabbath or attending church? Work is not worship. Warren's biggest problem is his interpretation of Scripture. At many crucial points, he appeals to Scripture incorrectly. Warren often quotes portions of verses, wrenching them out of their context. For example, he appeals to the Sermon on the Mount: "You're blessed when you can show people how to cooperate instead of compete or fight. That's when you discover who you really are, and your place in God's family" (pp.157-58). This is a distortion of what Christ said. He is not telling people that they should cultivate peace between men. Rather, peacemakers are blessed by God because they bring peace between men and God (Rom. 5:1). Another example of poor Scripture interpretation is Warren's explanation of Genesis 9:1, 3: "God said, 'It's time to get on with your life! Do the things I designed humans to do. Make love to your spouse. Have babies. Raise families. Plant crops and eat meals. Be humans! This is what I made you to be' " (p.74). To put it mildly, this explanation has nothing to do with the dominion mandate. Another element that strikes the reader is the self-promotion and marketing that is present throughout the book: PDL memory verse cards, prayer journals, music CDs, educational curriculum, and videos. Along with the many PDL products, there is the 40 Days of Purpose campaign for the local church. In October 2003 alone, over 4,000 churches launched their 40 Days campaigns. In order for a church to advertise a campaign, it has to pay a fee of $750 to $1,150 to the publisher. When you add the prospects of millions of dollars per month from churches offering the campaign, the millions of dollars in book sales, and profits from related merchandise, the publishers have created a financial windfall. But the gospel and vast profits are strange bedfellows. The gospel is free. While there are some positive aspects to Warren's book, they are significantly outweighed by the negative aspects. While the book claims to be God-centered, it is difficult to harmonize this claim with its consumer-driven and self-centered approach. For these reasons, Warren's book cannot be recommended.

Whattodowhattodowhattodo...

Utopian? Or ignorant? Or unaware?

In talking and understanding more about The Situation with A, before CC and TYC came too, I'm reminded of how painfully shallow my thought process has been, probably ever since I realised it the hard way since army times.

But of course, I'd want to think through the things at hand thoroughly, and clearly!

Even thinking through, can only thank God that by His grace, I've come to be saved by his Gospel..

Came back from a day of studying to find my wing mates (neighbours) having some "revenge" on one of the fuys who had been especially evil to the rest in his behaviour. The thing that happened to him? He got ALL his things removed from his room, and scattered (and hidden inside) to MANY rooms within our block. And he had to go around and find it by following clues that led from one to the next when he found the item, after hard guessing and begging when he finally found the room.

Quite funny, the entire episode. Managed to video some parts of it on camera, lol

Only thing is that seeing the whole lot of them, only served to make me more....concerned

Tired

Had a long day yesterday, came back bombed after the supper last night, fell asleep shortly after.

Many things to think through...

The more I learn....

The more I see that there's so much more that is to be learnt...

Thank God our salvation's not based on how much of the bible we know, but whether we have a faith in Christ being our Lord and Saviour, else I dunno who can/how to be saved liao.

But of course, I wanna know more!

CG today: we did on Romans 6:1-7:6. I was supposed to lead, but somehow my questions were not very to the point for this one, thank God CC and TYC were there too helping also, else I would be at a loss already...

More learning to come...

Friends

Those that stop you completely from drinking Coke, especially after knowing about my "battle" with it, and the casualties sustained so far(my teeth): friends? Enemies? Or "good" friends?

Have been robbed of my drink (what else) during lunch today, and got another drink in return, to "make sure that I don't drink coke".

Exasperatingly funny, though in some ways I think they're really nice, assuming that they're really concerned for the health and not just playing around for the sake of bullying me =P

Probably I shouldn't reveal too many things in my blog next time, my chances of drinking coke with others around (who knows) have already become smaller....heh heh

Romans 6:1-7:6

Bible Gateway : ROM 6:1-14

(1-5) Our future lives are certain, that we should be living in "newness of life"
(6-7) We're freed from slavery to sin
(8-10) Our new master (in the future when He comes again): God
(11) Conclusion: to consider ourselves dead to sin (not under sin), but alive to God in Christ (in the other domain as introduced in Rom 5:12-21) , since it's a certainty
(12-14) How to live our lives as if under our new Master already

Summary: Sin, no longer having any hold over us, has no dominion over us anymore. Instead, in the light of our certain future of being in the other domain fully, we're to live the rest of our lives as if God is fully our Master, all these which is enabled solely by Christ's work on the cross.

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Now....on to 6:15-7:6!

Pain and confusion

Sometimes, human relationships aren't the only things that cause pain &/or confusion, take tooth extraction for example: You experience pain, and you're confused when you try to brush/eat for a few days afterward =P

Though of course, the pain part is certainly felt in different parts of us.

(tml is my first visit to dentist...to check for (more!) decay areas if any, and to do some cleanup... =S )

Teething problems

Sigh...multiple decays...wisdom tooth to be plucked out...seeing the dentist at least THREE times over the next two weeks...

That's what happens when I don't take care of my teeth properly...darn...

And not only my teeth that will see change, there's major changes to come for other things too...

My goodness...

Uncertainty

I'm not a fan of uncertain futures, though it's certain that we'll face uncertain times, whilst in this world temporarily.

But if these serve to change anything, preserving this gospel of God, about Jesus Christ, will be held even closer to my heart, even if things DO change for the worse.

For how else can anyone be saved? Neither the believer, nor the non-believer, will have any other alternative, not in this world, not in this time; and by the time this world ends, it'll be too late by then.

On a lighter note, I know there's one thing for certain: that I have to finish my lab report by tonight no matter what X-|

Haven't talked to my roomie about some thing I've intended to, think had better talk to him not too late.

I wanna talk to my bro...and mum...at times it seems like my house has two other strangers living with me too...

Ok, back to THE lab report

God's Whale or God's Will?

NICE banner made by Barn, for the upcoming camp. Do check it out, and sign up if you're able to go! It's targeted at all professing brothers and sisters in Christ btw =)

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The "mini D-Day": I think we'll all know the results by tomorrow....worried...but still, can only pray and trust in Christ's work on the cross...

Why wasn't Jesus born with original sin?

Why wasn't Jesus born with original sin?

Question raised by one of the CG members in another CG, interesting question, with no definite answer when asked, yet.

Found this article talking about this, but not too sure how true this is...anyone?

Maths Formula

Romans 5:12-21

f(man) = { /* fill in the blanks */ }
Domain = {boy, girl, man, woman}
Range = {in Adam, in Christ}

Study

Study Study Study Study Study Study Study Study Study Study Study Study Study Study Study Study Study Study Study Study Study Study Study Study Study Study Study Study Study Study Study Study Study Study Study Study Study Study Study Study Study Study Study Study Study

For what? The end point still the same what.

Not for the grades, but for the understanding. Only regret's in not being consistent when I could.

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Went to V's place with TYC and CC today for dinner. Think she's a very good host, but forgot to thank her, alamak =P

Went for supper talk after studying a little, and supper. Passage from John 3:16-18, titled "Real Love".

Went for a short run with GF again after that, dropped by Benjy's place to chat him up a bit.

Thinking about God's love, which is in view of man's imperfections (in this case, man's status of being condemned already), there's some questions about the points WS was making, but dunno whether can get to clarify with him anot, or whether can remember to anot.

Reason for writing this second segment, since I don't usually list what I did in the day: because I'm boliao.

Confinement

Hence begins my attempt at trying to catch up in understanding my syllabus. Got a slight headache already from the cramming =|

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I'm still confused about many things, one of which is how to match a person's actions/appearance with how they are.

Nothing Can I Boast In

At God's perfect timing,
Christ died for fallen Man.
He wore a crown of thorns,
Nails driven through His hands.
Christ willingly endured it,
To death He chose to go.
He broke His body for us,
Shed blood to make us whole.

Nothing can I boast in,
My life is scarred with sin.
My works are filthy rags,
No merit can I bring.
Yet mercy filled Christ's heart,
Love took Him to the tree.
It's grace alone that saves me;
Christ's blood that sets me free.

So if I am boasting,
I'll speak of my disgrace.
For my weak self displays,
The power of God's grace.
Christ's Spirit works within me,
In weakness He is strong.
So I look to my Saviour,
To safely bring me home.

BUS CG

Joined A's and HQ's CG today: had been wanting to drop by see see look look (machiam like I'm very free huh?), and also A had asked me to go down today cos they're celebrating HQ's and R's (not too sure how to spell her name) birthdays.

Ended up making a small mess in the place, with the war that ensued after me trying to, erm, make full use of the last uneaten slice of the cake. The casualty list: A's clothes, HQ (quite a lot on her), my clothes.

Anyways, the passage that we did today was Romans 5:12-21, questions prepared and led (mainly) by A.

Dropped by the music min's practise whilst having dinner before gg to can A to study with TYC and Grandville. Reached back at about 1AM from studying.

Tired...but there's a lot of things to worry about, and pray.

=(

Urgency never sets in fully, until we know more about the extent of the problem/circumstances...

Philippians 4:4-9 ESV

Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, Rejoice. Let your reasonableness be known to everyone. The Lord is at hand; do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things. What you have learned and received and heard and seen in me--practice these things, and the God of peace will be with you.

Bored

Exams are near, yet still not in the mood really to "pia" for it.

Bored people have nothing much to write about.

Oh, btw, happy birthday in advance Shifu...though you certainly didn't get what you deserved ;)

Romans 5:1-11: New

New boasting...new relationship...


New outlook

Dun understand...

Had our CG today, did Romans 5:1-11 for the bible study, and came to be a lot clearer on the passage =)

But one part (actually half of what Paul's saying in that part), I can't really understand, not that I don't understand, I do, in my mind, but I somehow can't really grasp it fully, yet?

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This is that portion:
From the passage, we rejoice in 3 things: in hope of the glory of God (v2), in God thru our Lord Jesus Christ (v11), and in sufferings (v3).

Why do we rejoice in sufferings? Cos' sufferings ultimately end in hope (suffering > endurance > hope; am skipping a lot here), and this hope will not put us to shame, ie. it'll come true, what we hope in.

Why? Cos' God's love has been poured into our hearts (subjective work of the Holy Spirit in individuals, based on the objective fact of Jesus' person and work), taken from v5.

God's love, contrasted with man's (v6-7), and having done the harder thing which was God's love demonstrated in Jesus' work, what more of our hope of the glory of God (v9b, 10b)?

Which is why our hope (of the glory of God) will not be let down, back to the point about rejoicing in suffering.
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Sounds simple isn't it? But yet, somehow, I can't grasp the full gravity of this up till now...

Finally! The STUPID calculator (can only add and subtract...) design we're supposed to make for SC201 lab is finally done! Now only can wait and see if it works... *twists fingers* 

舍不得 (can't bear to)

Talking to the group of friends over lunchtime today, only made me (all the more) can't bear to leave cos of my various disappointments/reasons, and added on to why should I stay on (this feeling NOT being one of them).

Have joined this congregation since 8 years ago since secondary school, and have been with this team since then till now, to leave suddenly (to them it would be) would not be very loving either.

But all these things....sigh for now it's 真的舍不得啊

Driving

Gian...

Okok...back to lab!

Exams are coming!

For those who want to know my exam study timetable, and exams dates, for whatever reasons, here it is.

To everyone out there who's taking exams, all the best!

Caffeine Withdrawal Symptom

Taken from this website, and many others that are synonymous in what they say abt caffeine withdrawal...

What are the symptoms of caffeine withdrawal?

Regular caffeine consumption reduces sensitivity to caffeine. When caffeine intake is reduced, the body becomes oversensitive to adenosine. In response to this oversensitiveness, blood pressure drops dramatically, causing an excess of blood in the head (though not necessarily on the brain), leading to a headache.

(Seriously) time to start cutting down on it liao...after today's episode of headaches (have not drunk much coke for like, 3-4 days?), and after drinking one can for lunch, somehow felt better already.

Too much coke...

Headache

No strength to think...must...sleep...soon...

Weird Hits

It's really queer to see what kind of people have been coming here, and to see what kind of keywords people search for online, and end up coming to your site.

Nothing

This post has NOTHING in it, cos I have NOTHING to talk about here at least

Rushed day, bad day

Read the above-mentioned. I want to just sleep or something.

Apologies

Think I owe an apology to those who couldn't stomach my previous (deleted) post, or understand what I meant exactly, and hence gotten misunderstandings from my blog.

Firstly, sorry if I've given anyone a false impression of the people mentioned. My problem's not with the people at all, but the content of the speech as I've described.

And for those who don't know yet, this blog is just a part of my thoughts revealed, in no way is it authoritative, nor is it completely objective in any way in describing the actual events that has happened. Please know what you're reading when you come, thank you.

But of course I'm responsible for what I write here, though to take my thoughts as written here as authoritative would be unwise.

My sincerest apologies once again, to all.

Argh

Have been thinking about the passage for Romans 3:27-4:25 for the past 3 days liao, and though the main points are clear, the more I read and think about it, the more questions I get

Probably it's just that I'm tired, and am not thinking straight too much =S

But that certainly won't stop me from trying to understand this, else, how to transmit this clearly to the CG members?

I want to die liao.....

The balance between r'ship building and AA

Is there a difference between making your decisions based on building relationships with people? And gg cos of wanting attention?

Seems like there's a grey area/fine line between these two...

Btw, Happy Birthday Yifen! Continue to perservere in being faithful to the gospel!
=)

D-Day

Exam stress is coming down heavier and heavier each day, but with the
continued study of Romans, it seems almost, trivial, to what we have
to do still, everyday.

The Blur Preview: (just one more to make you all gian hahaha) An insight to the size of this guy 

Romans 5:1-11

Just came back from CGLG, where we discussed on Romans 5:1-11. Brain half fried in trying to understand it, but yet, there's a lot of things to be understood fully, looks like have to spend a LOT more time in figuring out this one...too many things that hit..too many..

The blur preview: Guess who's this? =D 

(Happening) Weekend

Happening weekend:
-Splash Awards: Microsoft's .NET briefing
-DodgeBall
-Mid-autumn mini-celebration
-Addition to the family: Benjy

The heart of a CGL: so much easier to understand where they're coming from, being one myself now, and to think through abt things.

Christianity for Dummies

Found the description and read an excerpt from that book whilst taking a break from studying. Quite a quirky way of putting the gospel forward (Dummies style), and some interesting examples that the author used to put forward some things in there, though not too sure whether there could be any misunderstandings from reading this (haven't read it myself).

Hahaha...back to study!

Went out w/ Tree n TZY to get some stuff from SLS (got a stack of CD-Rs today, finally), and watched "The Terminal", afterwhich we went for supper. (Afterward, realised that Tree had gotten back a different burner than which she sent for repair, so need to exchange again. Should've checked it there and then)

Had quite a weird experience with the shopkeeper trying to smoke TZY into getting a camera which wasn't as good. Funny how his attitude completely changed when that particular sale was 'confirmed', and his attitude changed.

The Terminal was a good show (finally one more good show out there, not those shows that they film for the sake of it)

Supper at Hall 9 with them, plus Chin Cher, just a time of talking and a little drinking. Reached back hall at 3am.
 

The ouch day

Went out in the morning to ecp to skate with some others, got opportunity to talk to some of the freshies that I've never gotten the chance to talk to much before.

Had a small fall whilst there, some stupid mistake of mine, not too much injury sustained relatively.

Some mis-comm, abt dinner arrangements, end up never join the rest for dinner, though somehow I think it's not related to the dinner that the prob lies somehow.

Had our fun day (where the various sections come together) today, thank God for the weather, and more importantly, the people who went, who made this possible. Was quite stressful, the running of the thing, with some details overlooked (like getting a loudhailer/whistle), but I think the people who went did get to know/talk to more people, and if anything, this is a start to start talking (to each other). Celebrated Chin Cher's birthday too after the dinner, and of course, with the LETHAL combination of C's there, there was no way that he'd have escaped the cream facial. Happy birthday bro! 

The importance of context

Many interesting things happening over the weekend: being "interrogated" over lunch (hahaha no lah) with A and HQ, celebrating Christina's birthday, dyeing of my roomie's hair, etc.

As with boring people, I shouldn't write too much details in here, lest they bore you to death ;)

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But there's one thing that hit me though: that no matter what we say, especially the things that really matter, finding out how the person's (you're talking to)understanding you, is important, as to the person saying it, that intended way of understanding it may seem perfectly natural, but to the hearer, they/he/she may be understanding it totally way off.

For things that don't matter, it's something trivial that can be settled easily.

But what about the things that settles the diff btw life and death? The things that matter? And those where there's no second chance on the decision?

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Some things may be looking up, and some things now seem more dangerously off than I thought; but in these, there's still one thing that hasn't changed: my only objective left in life.

(Come to think of it, the 5 day work week for civil servants may not be such a bad idea after all =D , but need to think through carefully with this particular idea that hit...)

Sub-Comm Night - Evolution: Pretty fun time getting to see who else're in the sub-comms, and talk to pple too. For those who don't know yet, I'm also in my hall's publications sub-comm (as a photographer of course!) =) 

Dance, study, shock

Lindy hop's really stress relieving! Though it'd certainly take a lot of effort to get to know the pple there better, counting the frequency we meet so far (once a week). After that went to study till about 1am odd.

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Found this link in some blog when I was surfing around, and if half the things it said about J Wesley's true, it's shocking man..

Thank God we can base our beliefs on what He says, not some guy's words/actions anyway...

:|

"The people must not reject the messenger (or the way the messenger brings forth the message), but (if at all) the Message, cos we should be trying to encourage pple to read the bible for themselves properly, in love, not to prove yourself correct"

Sigh...have I been doing such things, unconsciously?

From the looks of it, I may already have fallen for that long ago.

More thinking through to come...

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Am finally gonna merge/split our CG into the EEE's and the Business CGs, due to the fact that only one is able to turn up reglarly so far, I hope that this would turn
for the better, being the wise choice to make in such situations..

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Roomie's in the mood again, hope he's ok...

It's done!

It's 2 am now, 1 hr past my bedtime

Finally managed to finish my 204 lab report...ZZZzzzzZZZZzzzz....thanks to Ferg and XZ =P

Today's CG was, different. No one printed the questions, but we went through just like that (the 3 of us yet again). Not too sure whether he/they learnt anot...wellll.....haf to think it thru.....

ZZZzzzzZZZzzzzz....

Then again, whilst our work here on earth isn't done, thankfully His work (of salvation) in us is already fully fulfilled =D

ZZZZzzzZZZzz

24 Gmail invites

This is crazy, I just got my FOURTH set of 6 invites for Gmail... If anyone, ANYONE, wants an invite to have an account, do drop me a mail (gunblad3 |at| gmail |dot| com)

I think there's something weird going on...anyways there's more info here on Gmail...

Why? What?

Celebrated my floor-rep's birthday on saturday, there weer only 2 of us seniors who went, the rest all '83 one. It's funny, how pple are so interlinked, and how close he is to his friends after all these years: sec school, jc. Though was a little left out, cos i barely knew anyone there, even with the hall people going there (cos I still don't know many people from hall), but some of his sec school friends were really friendly, managed to talk to them a bit. Hope to be able to see some, if not all of, them around in the future.

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Am still thinking about my church: What's the reason for me to stay in here? What can I do, based on my reasons for being here?

It's a struggle, between leaving outright, with no "warning" whatsoever, and staying in the hopes of sharing what I've learnt. And reading about some recent things, have brought it up again in force, thinking about these things.

Why? What?

Had wanted to talk to Will and Ian about this, but didn't have the chance to. Thanks HZ though, for listening, and for the input, that gave me hope: that people are willing to see for themselves....

Why? What?

Drunk's eye view 

^^

Happy Bday Guofeng! =)

Tutorials, lectures, dinner, study, a long walk, a long talk...
Sounds like a normal day, but things never are normal around here anyway, not at least in my brain.

With testing things that you hear with the Word, comes more questions, thanks TYC for taking the time to explain to me, though I still need to think things through, and see for myself, since it's already been revealed to us all in the bible ^^

Studied with ChinCher a bit at the library before gg down to canteen to study with TYV and Grandville. Think they're all very...interesting pple ^^

And I think...I need to sleep ^^ cos I sound like I'm drunk or smth ^^

Sleepy...

Tiring day, though managed to think through clearly about Rom 3:1-20, and of the BS questions with HQ, and also managed to (finally) process the BB campfire pics I took sometime back, am uploading them in my gallery right now, but I think I'll concuss soon...after I've typed out the qns

Thinking about the last CG we had, think that managing the group dynamics of a CG, is what we (or at least I) need to learn, somehow also, lest when things digress badly somehow, the train of thought is broken also

The hospital, and the "miracle": Ian in ICU (left) and my comp which was resurrected (right) 

Whilst continuing on processing my (long overdue) photos to upload, hopefully by tomorrow evening, chanced upon these photos taken by Tree on our M'sia trip. Seemed such a big difference from since then: the amount of work to be done, the growth in the Word since then, the new freshies who've joined us in CF, the ever-ongoing process of thinking through the things that are close to where my heart is (if I still can find it! =D )... Having our CM and CGLG today, it was another time of learning and fellowship over dinner, etc. But even though in striving to understanding His Word clearly, so that also can transmit it clearly to the CG (thank God for the mind He has granted HQ, certainly someone who grasps the things fast most if not all of the time), the workload remains heavy, and, yeah, heavy. Holding on, isn't getting any easier, but there's hope, in the gospel that we've been saved by, that we know why on earth are we doing these seemingly (to others) crap things. 

CG3

Am worried for my CG members, somehow, like the rest of us, all bogged down with school work. Today only 1 freshie turned up, though it (still) was a good time of learning together, and wrestling with the text...not too sure abt my ability to manage team dynamics though, hmmm...

The solution to my worry? Pray...
(somewhere in Philippians I think)

Still thinking through about music min in church, and also my church, and now also where some of our (or my own, whichever you call it) beliefs come from...think my 68000 processor cmi liao, anyone got a 8086 to spare?)

My comp is dead... but, I still thank God

My comp got "killed" by me yesterday night, so much for my itchy-backside in trying to patch Windows with the WRONG release of SP2!

But even so, thank God, because it presented the chance to talk to my roomie and to get to know him a little bit more by talking. Ended up sleeping at 3am (FAR later than I originally intended to!), but if it takes this much for me to do what is needed, then by all means, till I rid myself of my over-reliance on my computer, may my comp "die" everyday!

Only thing now, is that I have my comp (in the morgue) and Ian (in the ICU) to take care of now, hope that I get the time to tend to them along the way...

Having people jio'ing you to have meals together, and talk, etc, just makes my day, don't ask me why, but it does. Was grinning away like an idiot (when I was in JP yesterday night finding a present for Gao Jun) when S jio'ed for lunch. Though a seemingly simple thing lunching with them (with HQ), but it's definitely something I look forward to: the talking over meals, the company =)

HQ shared, today after thinking of BS questions for the next CG, about the happenings when TYC challenged someone else, in reading and understanding the word. Am greatly encouraged by his faith, and HQ's faith too. Have a lot to learn...

Went for CG (HOPE's) today, at Christina's place: turnout was good, even with some pple not being able to join us today. Had one newcomer, June, (Shannon couldn't join us today) and the sharing and updating then was good, good for planning, and thinking through.

Tomorrow we celebrate Gao Jun's birthday. Though he's not a christian like the rest of the PRCs, but he's just as important as everybody else: to get to know, and to share our lives here on earth, whilst giving them the thing that everybody NEEDS for sure: the gospel.

What with Tree's grandma's rebirth, the encouragement by fellow brothers' and sisters' faith in Christ, being of the the same mind in the gospel of Jesus Christ, the roomie's comp that he's so graciously let me use also even, and many other things that I can't remember offhand now, even though we're still stretched like mad for time, how not to thank God?

The weekend draws near (it's here already actually), my friend's getting baptised this sunday, and my family's meeting my bro's fiance's family for dim sum: the busy life(style), won't be ending within these two days for sure

To fly like a bird: "Up, up, and away~~" (Photo store) 

The forgetful one

Forget forget forget...

Thank God, if not for Charmain's asking (and prodding), I'd never have remembered, and started to whack up about the Fun Day planning!

Something needs to be done about this super bad memory that I have

Went for the Teacher's Aide programme briefing at A*Star building beside MOE today, to see what's it about. And surprisingly, saw Mel there too. But pity, I didn't get to talk to her..

=S

"You can blame NASA for the peculiar weather"

Cheboygan Tribune: You can blame NASA for the peculiar weather

I dunno what to think of this man...

There's something...weird...

I think I...I...I...

I think...I'm having a crush? lol..not the time to even think abt pursuing this one even.

Crap..study! =S

"What am I missing in here..?" -From photo store 

8-O

Taiwan to produce a new type of memory storage device

Wah....2TB of storage, in a SD sized card....

...

"Hi, I'm from NTU Christian Fellowship, and I'm here to let you know about the series of supper talks that we're having on sunday evenings..."
Distributed flyers again today, this time at hall 4, after our (really) short CG (just shared, due to timing constraints).

Talked/quarrelled/tried to reason with/debated/whichever it was(but not known to me) with X today: it saddens me, really.

The irony of it all...one side easy, but busy, whereas the other area, not easy at all, but not that much time that can be committed to it, and the people, per se.

Unity

This morning's sermon was from Phillipians, on the topic of unity in Christ, in the church. Am really glad, to see Pastor Kay Leong preaching faithfully, being true to the Word, and edifying the church. =)

Have been challenged personally, about the status of the church being united, in Christ, as there certainly are people I don't treat in a proper manner, as much as I somehow would like to, but don't anyway...it's like having the relationship with your parents, whether you like it or not, whether you're hating this moment, or loving them the next, they're still your parents, and likewise, these people are my/our brothers and sisters in Christ.

Have had a short hanging out session at Olio Bishan after celebrating Chik Liang's bday over lunch @ Swensons. And the second half of the time we spent there, discussed/debated/tried to convince (dunno how to desc.) about some things which I really had hoped for them to come to understand, but...regret is that have forgotten to, or stopped short of, challenging them (those who went to Olio) to read the bible properly for themselves, that hopefully someday, the points I've made, would not remain as my arguments only, but what we can learn from His Word (what I've been convicted of as I learn too).

Meanwhile as I think/rethink about things, regarding my church (yet again), time to continue thrashing it out about the unity issue I have.

View to a Kill(ing): the tentative contents of my fridge =D 

Finally cleaned up my room, along with my roomie, and yeah, more (cleaning sessions) to come in the future.