Can I Give Up?

What does it really mean to rely on His strength other than your own?
Or is it really not the correct way to think abt it in the first place?

A mum who has crazy thinkings which can't be verified, getting
stressed by all the wrong pple supposedly, a whole lot of things to do and to be done, it'll be great if I don't crack or go mad by the end of this holidays, thank God for those whom have been working together so far, else would've really DIED by now.

Know that ministry entails suffering, but in these ways? From such
unlikely sources so to speak? But aren't we all supposed to encourage one another? Unless I (most probably) am being oversensitive to the way pple react, esp when they're tired and all that, and am expecting too much otherwise, and worse, am not helping them as I should be.

This is crazy, and sharing with my mum is impossible, as it had been
since primary school, and now that she's having crazy thoughts, and is crying murder for some of the things which I don't even know why yet, and of course am not on good terms with so to speak, that, certainly is an avenue which is far-fetched to even begin to start trusting enough to share the crap. And since a very very long time ago, when I've made some very wrong (and stupid) social choices, basically now there's nobody to gripe to properly; but then again, who the hell listens to guys gripe abt their stresses anyway?

Crap