Much running through the mind, but no way to get it out.

Can't remember to talk about it when it's time, can't even write here.

Like constipation, really bad constipation.

Related to talking to Wai a few days back, and on thinking through the teaching issue:

I think one of the reasons why I need to spend more time than others in preparing bible study is because I'm not a natural teacher in itself... But if that's really the case...

I may be worse than others in this, but the fact that I currently have the opportunity to proclaim God's words to us in this manner, and the fact that I might be better at this in the future.... I should keep trying!

After all, that's exactly the mindset I had when I decided to serve by trying to teach in the CF (in a time which wasn't too long ago, but certainly feels like eons ago) - I may not know everything, but I'd want to share what I know about the glorious truth.

PS: I think I really really need to work on my communication skills =|

From CCE to SSE

I used to have the title "Crazy Computer Engineer" (CCE) not too far back. Well, i'm going to be a Security Software Engineer pretty soon (SSE).

Thank God for providing a job :-)

Reassured

Sometimes on looking at the older people around me, and looking at myself and where I am, the thought just comes to my mind:

How on earth can I become Christlike as we're supposed to be? It already seems really really impossible to be mature like them, how much more it is be be like Christ?!

Today's study was on 1 Peter 1:3-9. And that question had been squarely addressed: the only way, and the best way, for me to make it till the end is by God's hand. He definitively saved his people by the cross and resurrection, and He's the one who keeps his people till the end.

What great comfort that comes from hearing that! It's true also that we meet to obey him, to keep trusting in Him, but the end result being solely by God's work on the cross and in us lifts a great burden from us. :-)

Teaching Little Ones

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(from this site)

Mouse and Small Fish

Mouse and Small Fish (a.k.a. Ikan Bilis?) =)

Of Chinese and Programming

I remember very clearly what we used to say when we first started going out together:

Me: You can teach me chinese, and I can teach you programming, ok?

Fen: *tsk*

Well, I ended up teaching her today how to program in Excel so that it'd be easier for her to do her work ;)

On the other hand, I think my mandarin hasn't improved much, judging from the number of times I made her (and her mum/dad) laugh at my direct english-to-chinese translations unintentionally... ="|

Problems with Blogger

Have been having problems with Blogger for a while, and a quick search reveals that it seems that other people have the same problem also.

Anyways, it's interesting to find a blog titled the Real Blogger Status, no?

Okok, I know it's not interesting to you! =D

I just got my first and only job offer (after three interviews with different companies). Though I'm thankful to God for providing (I was worried that I won't be able to find a job soon), I'm also worried that I might not be making the wisest choice for this, whether I agree to it or not at this point in time...

=}

Just took my ippt today at SAFRA Toa Payoh, and of course I failed. Never exercise for don't know how long liao.

But that aside, the facilities there is really different from what I expected a gym to be like. There's a jacuzzi and a sauna in the toilet even! Maybe my gym experience during my JC days wasn't that good, that's why :-D

Maybe I should become a member after all, can get my butt down to start exercising or something.

FYP End

Guess what marks the end of fyp for me?

The ceremonial final backup of all my fyp related files :-D

My handphone refused to work properly after storing about 1500++ smses, forcing me to delete all of them....

*makes mental note not to store so many in the future*

Being down these days in the quagmire of feeling down for no reason at all sometimes, many many thoughts running through my mind (some just weird) and some realizations hitting me like a ton of bricks...

... I can only conclude that it was depression man :O

End exam musings

When I put down my pen for my (God willing) last exam in NTU for this course...

One thing on my mind was that there's one less thing in the way, but still a whole lot more to do.

Another was the uncertainty at the future: finally my 2+6+4+2+4=18 years of consecutive school is over! But what will i be doing in the future?

But of course, the ultimate reality of the world to come hasn't changed. The final day is as near today as it was the first time they said that it's at hand :-O i must make it through this race! Somehow...