Headache

No strength to think...must...sleep...soon...

Weird Hits

It's really queer to see what kind of people have been coming here, and to see what kind of keywords people search for online, and end up coming to your site.

Nothing

This post has NOTHING in it, cos I have NOTHING to talk about here at least

Rushed day, bad day

Read the above-mentioned. I want to just sleep or something.

Apologies

Think I owe an apology to those who couldn't stomach my previous (deleted) post, or understand what I meant exactly, and hence gotten misunderstandings from my blog.

Firstly, sorry if I've given anyone a false impression of the people mentioned. My problem's not with the people at all, but the content of the speech as I've described.

And for those who don't know yet, this blog is just a part of my thoughts revealed, in no way is it authoritative, nor is it completely objective in any way in describing the actual events that has happened. Please know what you're reading when you come, thank you.

But of course I'm responsible for what I write here, though to take my thoughts as written here as authoritative would be unwise.

My sincerest apologies once again, to all.

Argh

Have been thinking about the passage for Romans 3:27-4:25 for the past 3 days liao, and though the main points are clear, the more I read and think about it, the more questions I get

Probably it's just that I'm tired, and am not thinking straight too much =S

But that certainly won't stop me from trying to understand this, else, how to transmit this clearly to the CG members?

I want to die liao.....

The balance between r'ship building and AA

Is there a difference between making your decisions based on building relationships with people? And gg cos of wanting attention?

Seems like there's a grey area/fine line between these two...

Btw, Happy Birthday Yifen! Continue to perservere in being faithful to the gospel!
=)

D-Day

Exam stress is coming down heavier and heavier each day, but with the
continued study of Romans, it seems almost, trivial, to what we have
to do still, everyday.

The Blur Preview: (just one more to make you all gian hahaha) An insight to the size of this guy 

Romans 5:1-11

Just came back from CGLG, where we discussed on Romans 5:1-11. Brain half fried in trying to understand it, but yet, there's a lot of things to be understood fully, looks like have to spend a LOT more time in figuring out this one...too many things that hit..too many..

The blur preview: Guess who's this? =D 

(Happening) Weekend

Happening weekend:
-Splash Awards: Microsoft's .NET briefing
-DodgeBall
-Mid-autumn mini-celebration
-Addition to the family: Benjy

The heart of a CGL: so much easier to understand where they're coming from, being one myself now, and to think through abt things.

Christianity for Dummies

Found the description and read an excerpt from that book whilst taking a break from studying. Quite a quirky way of putting the gospel forward (Dummies style), and some interesting examples that the author used to put forward some things in there, though not too sure whether there could be any misunderstandings from reading this (haven't read it myself).

Hahaha...back to study!

Went out w/ Tree n TZY to get some stuff from SLS (got a stack of CD-Rs today, finally), and watched "The Terminal", afterwhich we went for supper. (Afterward, realised that Tree had gotten back a different burner than which she sent for repair, so need to exchange again. Should've checked it there and then)

Had quite a weird experience with the shopkeeper trying to smoke TZY into getting a camera which wasn't as good. Funny how his attitude completely changed when that particular sale was 'confirmed', and his attitude changed.

The Terminal was a good show (finally one more good show out there, not those shows that they film for the sake of it)

Supper at Hall 9 with them, plus Chin Cher, just a time of talking and a little drinking. Reached back hall at 3am.
 

The ouch day

Went out in the morning to ecp to skate with some others, got opportunity to talk to some of the freshies that I've never gotten the chance to talk to much before.

Had a small fall whilst there, some stupid mistake of mine, not too much injury sustained relatively.

Some mis-comm, abt dinner arrangements, end up never join the rest for dinner, though somehow I think it's not related to the dinner that the prob lies somehow.

Had our fun day (where the various sections come together) today, thank God for the weather, and more importantly, the people who went, who made this possible. Was quite stressful, the running of the thing, with some details overlooked (like getting a loudhailer/whistle), but I think the people who went did get to know/talk to more people, and if anything, this is a start to start talking (to each other). Celebrated Chin Cher's birthday too after the dinner, and of course, with the LETHAL combination of C's there, there was no way that he'd have escaped the cream facial. Happy birthday bro! 

The importance of context

Many interesting things happening over the weekend: being "interrogated" over lunch (hahaha no lah) with A and HQ, celebrating Christina's birthday, dyeing of my roomie's hair, etc.

As with boring people, I shouldn't write too much details in here, lest they bore you to death ;)

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But there's one thing that hit me though: that no matter what we say, especially the things that really matter, finding out how the person's (you're talking to)understanding you, is important, as to the person saying it, that intended way of understanding it may seem perfectly natural, but to the hearer, they/he/she may be understanding it totally way off.

For things that don't matter, it's something trivial that can be settled easily.

But what about the things that settles the diff btw life and death? The things that matter? And those where there's no second chance on the decision?

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Some things may be looking up, and some things now seem more dangerously off than I thought; but in these, there's still one thing that hasn't changed: my only objective left in life.

(Come to think of it, the 5 day work week for civil servants may not be such a bad idea after all =D , but need to think through carefully with this particular idea that hit...)

Sub-Comm Night - Evolution: Pretty fun time getting to see who else're in the sub-comms, and talk to pple too. For those who don't know yet, I'm also in my hall's publications sub-comm (as a photographer of course!) =) 

Dance, study, shock

Lindy hop's really stress relieving! Though it'd certainly take a lot of effort to get to know the pple there better, counting the frequency we meet so far (once a week). After that went to study till about 1am odd.

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Found this link in some blog when I was surfing around, and if half the things it said about J Wesley's true, it's shocking man..

Thank God we can base our beliefs on what He says, not some guy's words/actions anyway...

:|

"The people must not reject the messenger (or the way the messenger brings forth the message), but (if at all) the Message, cos we should be trying to encourage pple to read the bible for themselves properly, in love, not to prove yourself correct"

Sigh...have I been doing such things, unconsciously?

From the looks of it, I may already have fallen for that long ago.

More thinking through to come...

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Am finally gonna merge/split our CG into the EEE's and the Business CGs, due to the fact that only one is able to turn up reglarly so far, I hope that this would turn
for the better, being the wise choice to make in such situations..

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Roomie's in the mood again, hope he's ok...

It's done!

It's 2 am now, 1 hr past my bedtime

Finally managed to finish my 204 lab report...ZZZzzzzZZZZzzzz....thanks to Ferg and XZ =P

Today's CG was, different. No one printed the questions, but we went through just like that (the 3 of us yet again). Not too sure whether he/they learnt anot...wellll.....haf to think it thru.....

ZZZzzzzZZZzzzzz....

Then again, whilst our work here on earth isn't done, thankfully His work (of salvation) in us is already fully fulfilled =D

ZZZZzzzZZZzz

24 Gmail invites

This is crazy, I just got my FOURTH set of 6 invites for Gmail... If anyone, ANYONE, wants an invite to have an account, do drop me a mail (gunblad3 |at| gmail |dot| com)

I think there's something weird going on...anyways there's more info here on Gmail...

Why? What?

Celebrated my floor-rep's birthday on saturday, there weer only 2 of us seniors who went, the rest all '83 one. It's funny, how pple are so interlinked, and how close he is to his friends after all these years: sec school, jc. Though was a little left out, cos i barely knew anyone there, even with the hall people going there (cos I still don't know many people from hall), but some of his sec school friends were really friendly, managed to talk to them a bit. Hope to be able to see some, if not all of, them around in the future.

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Am still thinking about my church: What's the reason for me to stay in here? What can I do, based on my reasons for being here?

It's a struggle, between leaving outright, with no "warning" whatsoever, and staying in the hopes of sharing what I've learnt. And reading about some recent things, have brought it up again in force, thinking about these things.

Why? What?

Had wanted to talk to Will and Ian about this, but didn't have the chance to. Thanks HZ though, for listening, and for the input, that gave me hope: that people are willing to see for themselves....

Why? What?

Drunk's eye view 

^^

Happy Bday Guofeng! =)

Tutorials, lectures, dinner, study, a long walk, a long talk...
Sounds like a normal day, but things never are normal around here anyway, not at least in my brain.

With testing things that you hear with the Word, comes more questions, thanks TYC for taking the time to explain to me, though I still need to think things through, and see for myself, since it's already been revealed to us all in the bible ^^

Studied with ChinCher a bit at the library before gg down to canteen to study with TYV and Grandville. Think they're all very...interesting pple ^^

And I think...I need to sleep ^^ cos I sound like I'm drunk or smth ^^

Sleepy...

Tiring day, though managed to think through clearly about Rom 3:1-20, and of the BS questions with HQ, and also managed to (finally) process the BB campfire pics I took sometime back, am uploading them in my gallery right now, but I think I'll concuss soon...after I've typed out the qns

Thinking about the last CG we had, think that managing the group dynamics of a CG, is what we (or at least I) need to learn, somehow also, lest when things digress badly somehow, the train of thought is broken also

The hospital, and the "miracle": Ian in ICU (left) and my comp which was resurrected (right) 

Whilst continuing on processing my (long overdue) photos to upload, hopefully by tomorrow evening, chanced upon these photos taken by Tree on our M'sia trip. Seemed such a big difference from since then: the amount of work to be done, the growth in the Word since then, the new freshies who've joined us in CF, the ever-ongoing process of thinking through the things that are close to where my heart is (if I still can find it! =D )... Having our CM and CGLG today, it was another time of learning and fellowship over dinner, etc. But even though in striving to understanding His Word clearly, so that also can transmit it clearly to the CG (thank God for the mind He has granted HQ, certainly someone who grasps the things fast most if not all of the time), the workload remains heavy, and, yeah, heavy. Holding on, isn't getting any easier, but there's hope, in the gospel that we've been saved by, that we know why on earth are we doing these seemingly (to others) crap things.