Condolences

Condolences to the family of my uncle who just passed away.

I don't really know what to say here...

Also, let me/us know if there's anything I/we can help you with, 'kay?

Second Factor Authentication

Never expected to be able to hold such a device myself. The secure device came today in the mail. A perfect 'perk' for the crazy computer engineer =)

Recovery

Still recovering from the slight disillusionment, I hope 'life' returns soon, have been 'dying' bit by bit for a while liao.

Refocus

If I want to continue my ministry towards all the people around me, I'll need to change a lot further. Not that it isn't impossible (the fact that I changed in so many things cannot be anything else other than God working), but it's scary, uncomfortable and really tiring...

Over the past few months my focus hadn't been on Christ as it should be. Gradually, gradually, I lived for him lesser and lesser, just doing the same external things, but the heart had already run far far away. What an oxymoron: not belonging to this world anymore but losing focus of the sole reason for everything, which is the Judge's impending return.

Doing things with the right heart and the right understanding may not necessarily result in a sooth life, but I know that that's the way the redeemed should live on: in thankful obedience for what God has done for us in Christ.

May I (and the many brothers and sisters of this family) always trust in Christ till the end, and live for Christ's and others' sakes.

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Torn between this world and the next. Just, torn and suffering the consequences of myself.

Worried

Many, many things I'm worried about, but I'll keep trying to think through and do what I should be, and ask God to help...in doing what only He can.

Sitemeter

Saw my blog's sitemeter for the first time in months, and amazingly there's still a continuous flow of visitors to this site every day, even though I don't update regularly. There's a few possibilities on who are the visitors who come to read:

1. The type that checks every single blog that he/she knows, even though there may/may not be anything worth reading apparently.

2. The type that wants to know what's up with my life (from whatever little I write) somehow.

3. The type that hates me so much that he/she wants to know what I'm doing, so that he/she can curse me/poke voodoo dolls of me/do something with that information. =P

4. The type that uses my blog for other reasons like using the blog links, or just to get their daily laugh out of seeing my horrible blog design.

5. Actually my visitor count is not from people, but search engines only. My blog truly is desolate =D

I haven't seen the details of the visitors yet (don't have so much time), but I'm pretty sure there'd be a considerable percentage of search engines, because almost nobody comments! Hahahah =D

(Exam stress makes people write weird things at times)