Wedding preps

Went to the hotel (to settle booking details) and the bridal boutique (to choose the gown and suit) today...

...she really looked very nice when trying on the gowns =")



Can't wait to get married, though her being pretty isn't the sole reason for me wanting to do so lah =D

It seems that making simple(r than the usual) wedding plans do come with their own set of problems as well.

With the constraints that we face currently, we definitely will not be able to invite everyone that we'd wish to invite, and the range of responses I got from friends spanned the gamut: from the indifferent response to the I'm-kinda-ok-with-that response to the not-pleased-with-that-at-all kind of response.

In Singapore, it seems that all around assumes that there'll be some kind of arrangement at least to accomodate everyone around for at least the ceremony &/or dinner.

It does suck to break the news to those who'd really wish to be there on that day itself. But whether in the end an arrangement is fulfilled to celebrate with you in an alternative arrangement or not, rest assured: to the only few friends (outside of church) that I've come to know and keep in contact over the years, you're just as important to me as the church family, family and relatives that I know too, even though we don't meet regularly or relate to one another in the same way all the time.

In the past few weeks, we settled the buying of our house, the choosing of a bridal boutique, most of the planning for the simple, small hotel solemnization and buffet lunch, and the choosing of a hotel to do so in.

Things are moving fast, after getting information and deciding. Very stress (mainly for Fen, who did most of the coordinating..., reading up online, checking out forums, stressing over the fact that many locations and preferred photographers are already booked for that day... since I'm really really busy these few weeks. Thanks my dear Fen :-) but it also means that we won't have to worry about these any more :-) just focus on the things left to be done :-)

Not all is going smoothly though. The state of affairs at my house is progressively getting worse and worse. And in the process, even I've reached my limit of patience, and as a result contributing to the (bad) situation by quarrelling with my mum, a few times.

This house was never a home for a long time already, and it's being compounded with the stress of living under the same roof as her, and still with the God given status of being born into this world as her son. I know in theory what needs to be done: honour parent as it is how things are supposed to be, forgive, show love as we've been shown in Christ. But, the situation gets more and more... Complex.

Already am at my wit's end as to what to do with her. Starting to feel very down most of the time, especially when I think or talk about or with her. And what now with her attitude when she interacts or speaks (only when she has no choice left) with me and some others around, I'm only going to be chased away (literally) by her.

Already not having seen a father of my own even before I started to be aware of things, and now seeing how my mother's treating things as if she has no children of her own, sometimes I can't help but feel like an orphan.

I hope that we'll be able to create a home which is good for each other, and our children, in the future when we do get married.

Post-edit: there's more to write after the meeting over dinner, but that's for another post (if it happens).

Attended C's and A's wedding today. Or rather, played the bass guitar in the band for the wedding.

It was really great seeing and talking to many of them again, after not seeing them for years. Saw the boyfriends of a couple of sisters too. Although I didn't get to talk to them, still I'm really glad for them :-)

Talked also to Avie today, not with the past, tense, few words, but as friends. Does this mean that the past was forgiven? Or simply that it was forgotten? Heh, I've yet to apologize properly, for my past impulsiveness.

Will be attending the wedding dinner in a couple of days' time. Hope to be able to catch up with more of those whom are still dear to relationally dysfunctional people like me. :-D kidding lah